my best friend is moving away

i am feeling sad today because i learn that my best friend is moving to cleveland ohio in may because she got the job offered in cleveland ohio from her old company that are moving their employees almost everywhere and closing the company and she accept the job it is better than not get the job
i will not have much friends in michigan anymore and it will be boring without her sighs and i will miss her but i will always go there to visit who knows maybe i will follow soon if i find job there in ohio i am sad about her moving away i will miss her being around but i will keep in touch with her i have done that before will do that again she is my best friend since we were little
i am happy for her to accept the offer it was fast it is better than nothing i hope i will get job there if i can find job who knows
if i will live there who knows

the weather have got hotter

the weather have got hotter and it feel like summer in last 2 days heat waves have start OMG now i can't sleep at night cuz of the heat at night blah and i start to wear short and T-shirt i can't believe it my season affective disorder (winter blue) is about to get better soon as the weather approve and the tempture go up and the winter have gone and i really start to enjoy the warmth and the sun is out for few days but i really enjoy the high tempture for now but soon i won't be enjoying it if it contiune that way for while dang
i believe that weather have gone out of control for while with up and down (yoyo) temptures for while now OY i am going to enjoy it when it last for while i am not sure when it will go back to the spring like temptures that i do enjoy too that it was not so cold not so hot just equal tempture i wish had my puppy now and i would have take him out and take him for a walk and enjoy it together so now i better go and enjoy the weather

can't wait to talk to my friends on my VP

i can't wait to talk to my friends on my VP
2 friends of mine got their new vp i am excited for them to get one hehe about time they get them yaya
i already got 3 friends in my VP list hope to get more in my VP then i can get my own cable modem in my room so i can hook up in my TV not in other room so i can VP my friends anytime without bother other people by use other room for my VP chat blah so anyway i am going to plan to VP chat with my good friend soon but not sure when because we need to set up time to chat i kinda of miss talk to her on VP.
FIRST i need to talk to my cable company about the extra modem being in my room for the VP and how much it cost so i can get them and have it install in my room i hope it is not so expensive to get the 2nd modem if it is not expensive than i thought it would be then i will get them and install it in my TV and use my VP to talk to my friends i am glad that i got my own VP lol
i really enjoyed using VP hehe

my depression

i am having hard time get rid of my depression it can't be rid of very fast overnite it need time to heal like it will takes few weeks to few months to get well depression is a mood disease i am in therapy for my depression i have psychologist and a signing therapist. with psychologist i need to ask him about antidepression medications and etc... with therapist talk to her about my feelings and what my goals will be and i have to do with them to complete.
i am working on with my goals in my life and do with them i have few goals that i wanted to do that i wrote down in here below
my depression was worse and bad this year than the previous years that i have been depressed this year that i was not be able to get rid of it i am glad that i am getting help and that i can be able to heal better and take time to heal easy. Depression take time to heal and sometimes can have relapse from depression. sometimes i do get relapses from depression i am working on getting better

love to read books

i love to read books i always read every subject from fictions to non fictions actually i have some of my favorite subjects of books and books itself i have some that i save so i can read it again and again in the future i really enjoyed reading and i like to read in bed when i travel with people i do read in car to keep me from getting bored i like to read action books and sometimes horror books
i have some of my favorite authors that i enjoyed to reading their books it is really interested to read them
ghosts and hauntings are one of my favorite subjects of books to read because it really interested me learning about history of haunting itself and how people experiencing seeing them and felt the presences i have experience myself that why i have start doing that since i have been collecting the books since then and save them not to give away actually i have 3 boxes full of them
that i saved

researching to get puppy

my sister and i are researching some of the breeder list around near my home what breeder is good with all the genetic testing and etc... on the dogs that they don't have health problems later in the years. fortunely we found some breeders that breeds chocolate labs around near my area that is cool. if there no available labadors yet and i can be on the waiting list anyway. when there are available labardors then it is time to get ready to get puppy when i am ready to get one then we get together we will go to the breeder of the choice and look at the puppies i am thinking of getting chocolate lab and can't wait to get one i always wanted pet since my old cat died and i am ready now to have a pet around and be in my life again i wanted chocolate lab and i just wanted to be mommy again of course i am still my old cat's mommy no matter
i know how much work with puppy and training and etc... but i just don't care i just wanted to have a full life with puppy and keep me busy and etc...

need to make goals in my life

i decide that i would have to make some list of my goals and try to do the goals that i always wanted to do then i have make some goals in my life to make my life more livable and keep me busy i make lists of my goals that i wanted to do there is the list i write down i hope to complete and contiune to do so not to give up the goals that i wanted to do i hope i can do the goals that i will try to do

1. work- work with animals-volunteering and maybe can get a pay job maybe like bookstore i like books
2. going out more and be with people more and get to know them and be in the "group" and be part of their lives
3. be on my own-IMPORTANT goal to do so i can learn to do
4. learn how to drive-always wanted to do that was never done i feel that i would use to the experience of driving

5. have someone in my life- it was my goal to have but never got to it and i am not sure of that myself because i get hurt all the time maybe i need time to myself first then later on get to know guys first before get serious and be in relationship