things have calm down

everything that have been trouble have calm down but we are not speaking to 3 people right now. we are now aiding each other for comfort and get our feelings out all of us understood how we felt. i am glad that we are in speaking base we find that we not wanted to lose the friendship that we have build over the years and we need each other.
i am very glad that we are making peace with each other. That everything is going to be alright. i was there for everyone because i was not there when all the dramas have started i am am very glad that they not wanted me to be involved i understand what they are have been through it was very hard. i am there for them whenever they needs me and i am listening and etc...even sometimes i give out what i am feelings about the 3 people also. i am glad that they are my friends.

emotion been up and down

i am having emotions for few days like it was running off the wall. i was feeling weird about things happening around even with my friends like other people insulted my friends like that they don't care of my friends feelings and etc... i don't like other people who insulted my friends. i was wonder what wrong with them insulting my friends and their feelings and etc... all have start with one person treating a person SO special we were spending money on this person to make the trip to see us but one person wanted to add more and we were wonder why need more since we are paying is that enough?? and i was wonder what is special why can we be special too. Why will this person be special not us.
all this have been ruined because of one person sighs i wish this person would not have to add more and ruined our friendships over the favoritism of this person. i am more upset about that. I don't know when it will be over or maybe not. just have to wait and see.

not going to CA

Mom just left for CA this morning i am not going to CA with mom because mom made decision that i will not go because of my dog oh please!!! i am already researching what kennels that are best for my dog and i am planning to inview them if they have experience with separate anxiety dogs mom really hurt my feelings about not letting me go she need to understand how i feel and that i need some breaks i need some breaks away from home i feel i always at home all the time but i need to get out much as i can sighs.
i can do things if i feel nervous and she need to STOP worry about things over like my money and me traveling alone i can handle it and i can do this. she is much a worrier i will be fine unless i try do on my own i need to learn to be on my own. when she does worry it won’t help me lead to being on my own later on also it won’t help if she not let me do things on my own, i need to learn how do this on my own. i need her to stop being in my life like controlling my life. She need to back off.
i am managing my money how much i am spending and saving them. i was so depressed that i felt that my life is not worth to live for or wanted to do something i have to something by myself when mom is not around and being a hawk. i wish she would leave me alone sighs. But i always wanted to go to see my brother alone for long time maybe i can later on who knows.
i had my friend over for few days anyway i am starting to plan what i am doing during that week like rent movies doing my projects, reading my library books, taking care of my dog when weather warm up will take my dog out for a long walk so he can enjoy the walk i know he is anxious to do so. Also when day near for mom to return i can clean the house and get things ready for mom to come home I know that mom likes to come home to clean house. i have make list of things to do anyway.

get ready for a friend's visit

i have been cleaning my house since Monday for a friend's visit i can't wait to catch up with her and doing things with her like going out shopping, maybe see a movie and dinner. i haven't seen her since October when we went on cruise. we will catch up with our chats and etc... i am going to give my dog a bath later so he will be smelling so good for my friend's visit. She will be meeting my dog for the first time she was about to meet him last time but timing was bad. But not now she is be able to meet him. my dog is so sweet dog i ever got i am so lucky to have him in my life and making me happy as he would make me. He always give me much love.
my driving lesson is doing well as i am learning about road rules and etc... hope when i am ready to take the test and i will pass i hope i can pass this and get license and i can drive so i don't have to be so dependable to my parents driving me around. I can't wait to start drive.

busy weekend

I will be at Indiana on sat (tomorrow) to see my sister about time i haven't seen her since christmas and try to get together since then but the weather have prevent us from see each other and now the weather have cooprated enought for us to get together whew!! i am packing for both Pappy and me for the weekend and Pappy is going with us.
my nephew was sick before and then everyone start get sick also that prevent us from get together to avoid to past the germs to us and now everyone is better. i am glad that they are better i hate to see them sick. or get their germs.
i am continue the cross stitch project and reading the book "the other boleyn girl" by Philippa Gregory i am bring the book with me this weekend. Also i am bring my computer with my new power cord along with my notebooks and etc... I always bring stuffs with me like my laptop, book, folders with notebook and camera. i won't be bring lot.

still working on my cross stitch Project

i am still working on 2 cross stitch project one for my bride to be friend and other one for a friends who will be celebrating their first anniversary soon. Right now i am working on the project for the bride to be friend of mine first then i can work on other one for my friend. i hope they love them. i am still working on it it is doing well so far as i am much expert on cross stitching after 6 years of doing lot of projects as i have few of my favorites. i make list of my favorites, i do still cross stitch my favorites projects.
i really enjoyed cross stitching, i am very glad that i got to know how to do cross stitch and it is much easy now since i have start and now i am more expert on cross stitch. i am glad i got myself into cross stitch. i am glad that it is my hobby.
found some more books on cross stitch projects, i am continue to look for more books on cross stitches, can’t wait to start on the projects from the books i brought.

more planned books to get

I love reading books. I am reading Jackie Collins books right now that i borrow from the Library will do continuing borrowing more Jackie Collins books this Spring and Summer as well to catch up with her books. right now i am reading the other Boleyn girl by Philippa Gregory then watch the movie base on the book. Philippa Gregory did wrote other books i might plan to read her books base on The Boleyns.
i wanted to keep my Spring and Summer busy just like last year even with my depression it was little hard to keep busy when i don’t feel busy
But this year it will be pretty easy on me

more books i have list below:
New Series i wanted to read from the TV that have been running for long time:
Stargate: SG-1 series
CSI series i read some of them need to buy more books from the series.
I might going to buy both CSI and Stargate at same time if i can.
Charmed series i am very curious of the books maybe i will buy 1 or 2 books to read to see if i like it or not it won’t hurt to buy books when i am very curious what the books are about. i will buy the books after i buy CSI and Stargate:SG-1. I like Ann Rule books i have some of her books some of them are my favorite i am going to buy some of Ann Rule's books that i haven't read but i have few of her books that i already read and some of them were my favorite and have save them. her daughter, Leslie Rule is a ghost writer and i have her books even read them. her books are part of my collections.

i have make list of my favorite authors:
VC Anderews
Dean R Koontz
Ann Rule
Anne Rice

authors i like:
James Rollins
Matthew Reilly
Iris Johansen
Leslie Rule

New Authors:
Jackie Collins

Crazy about Crocs

i am so crazy about crocs shoes even thou they make in colors i have one in turquoise even i wore it on my cruise trip and they were SO comfortable wow and i would love to have other one in different colors and more.
so i got black one for christmas i am glad to get more color crocs to go with clothes i wear heh i am thinking of getting more color like in sea blue and pink or fuchsia who knows
ther e is different croc names one is beach and one is caymans but they have more than 2 names. I like beach because they do fit me in different size for example my size 6 and beach croc size is 4/5 for size 6 and it does fit me better.
Scott have one in yellow that i got him for christmas and he love it and wore it often indoor when the weather warm up he will wear it outside. i will do the same. i wanted to get one for Laura for christmas present and her birthday too then she will never have enough crocs lol she told me that she would love to have crocs as well i will let her pick the color and she will tell me what color she wanted for her birthday so i can get her one.
i have list of colors i would love to have.

March is Here

have things to do this month get stuff together.
need to get my personal stuff that i was running out and get more stuff for Pappy like more food and more baggies maybe some toys if i have enough money left i like to get things done then i don't have to worry about it later on i like to stock stuff up so i don't have to worry about running out when i don't feel like going out to get more later on. I always make sure i don't run out on things. i need to get my medication refilled soon. i love shopping always make me feel better it is a retail therapy.
soon i will get more foods later on i am saving money for when my friend come visit and we go shopping together i have idea for us to have maybe a trip to Mall of America i always wanted to go there since they opened i hope we will plan on it i will help her with it and etc... i would LOVE to go there and shop heh. i am very curious of that place i love to go to different malls even the ones i haven't gone for so long. i have few favorite malls.
still do cross stitch project and reading Jackie Collins books as well i really enjoyed Jackie Collins' Lady Boss i have 2 other books i am going to read after Lady Boss, Jackie Collins' Lover and Players are my next book to read.
i am planning to go with my friends in ohio in July but i am thinking right now of maybe going or not