not going to CA

Mom just left for CA this morning i am not going to CA with mom because mom made decision that i will not go because of my dog oh please!!! i am already researching what kennels that are best for my dog and i am planning to inview them if they have experience with separate anxiety dogs mom really hurt my feelings about not letting me go she need to understand how i feel and that i need some breaks i need some breaks away from home i feel i always at home all the time but i need to get out much as i can sighs.
i can do things if i feel nervous and she need to STOP worry about things over like my money and me traveling alone i can handle it and i can do this. she is much a worrier i will be fine unless i try do on my own i need to learn to be on my own. when she does worry it won’t help me lead to being on my own later on also it won’t help if she not let me do things on my own, i need to learn how do this on my own. i need her to stop being in my life like controlling my life. She need to back off.
i am managing my money how much i am spending and saving them. i was so depressed that i felt that my life is not worth to live for or wanted to do something i have to something by myself when mom is not around and being a hawk. i wish she would leave me alone sighs. But i always wanted to go to see my brother alone for long time maybe i can later on who knows.
i had my friend over for few days anyway i am starting to plan what i am doing during that week like rent movies doing my projects, reading my library books, taking care of my dog when weather warm up will take my dog out for a long walk so he can enjoy the walk i know he is anxious to do so. Also when day near for mom to return i can clean the house and get things ready for mom to come home I know that mom likes to come home to clean house. i have make list of things to do anyway.