Update NEWS

Right now my moods are feeling so lousy lot of things going on around me and i had hard time to deal with because of my depression i still can't seems get rid of it sighs but i am still in therapy hope this week when i go in for my weekly session i will got my feelings out about what is happening in last week, it is better than keep it inside too long.
First: i lost my cousin last sat (may 26, 2007) i miss her so much she is wonderful person we have bonded when she was kid i feel that she looked up to me when she was kid. I have one of my favorite picture of my cousin sitting on my lap with my 2 cousins who i also lost along with my brother and my sister and my other cousin (the older sister of my late cousin) She is the 4th cousin that i have lost and Second: i feel that my friends are ignoring me but i don't think they are because they have their own problems i hope everything will be alright later on i feel so bad for them when they had their own problems that i already knew what was going on i hope that they will be alright i wish i was there to comfort them and i feel so sad for them because they works so hard to make the event special because it is their special day and all of us who is invited can be able to spend the special day with them. Third: i am upset that i would not be able to get my dog sighs but i understand of the high temps and not good for the dog i don't wanted anything happens to him. hope i can get him next month i feel if i had my hope up and it got ruined that all i feel but i know that i am serious of get the dog i already pay for him so he is still mine.
Well the arrangement of getting my dog have change until june sheesh but we have some reason is because the temperature of this week will be in 90s so much for the dog to fly over to me so we (my sister, the man and i) still talk about the arrangement of me to pick him up and etc.. and now while he is still at home he will get his teeth clean and neuter for me so i don't have to pay for all the stuff i told the man to go ahead and he will tell me how much and etc.. and sound like i might have to pay him back for that but i am not sure of that but i will wait and see if i have to. I hope everything go smooth with the arrangement of getting the dog.