happy birthday to friend of mine

happy birthday to L.

happy birthday to my friend she is older today ha! other year older as we get older every year. i have know her since we were kids and have seen each other growing up and etc...
i was very happy that she is my friend.

Future visits and etc...

i have been thinking of lot of things and one only part is that i only wanted to save money for my trip to ohio to visit my friend who live there have been living there for a year and half now. she had been here recently and now it is my turn to go there to visit her. Much easier if i get car and i can go there anytime.
i am not sure of going to Northern Minnesota in September, but i can just wait and see what happens if we wouldn't go we can always go there next summer first thing to go, i don't have any plans next summer anyway so it might be good time to go there, But i am waiting to see if we will go next month or not that all. I don't mind if i don't go there and that way i would be able to save money for my visit to ohio in October instead.
i miss my sister and i wanted to see her and i have no idea why my parents stop going to her house for the whole weekend visit. They are not telling me why they only give me little details but it not really why. if i have car i will go there and stay for the whole weekend and i told my sister about that and she told me that it will be great, then i will do that i felt one day thing is not my thing anymore. I like to stay little bit longer that i only can get more visit that way.

Doing More Researchings

I am doing more researching on one research that I haven't done for while for whole country of US 

each of haunting places, lists and etc...

Cemeteries 

Haunted locations

Haunted cities/town

I really enjoyed doing researching ghosts and hauntings. ghosts and hauntings really interested me for so long, I am glad that I stayed interested in stuff like that for long time.

had quiet weekend

it was nice quiet weekend,
all i did was catching up with my summer book reading i have few books that i would like to finish reading so i decide that this summer is good to get start on reading, and i am glad that i have plan to and keep my concetrate on my reading this summer i finished May list of books, i finished June list of books, and i finished July book list of books so far. Now that i have start on August book list and I am now reading Innocent Traitor and hopefully to finish 3 or 4 more books before Sept
i have done few cross stitch projects this summer so far. i have done hairstylist, I’m a new big sister, christmas woods, Ghost Trio. I did the Hairstylist for Lynn over again this time it is little big but not big problem also easy to see much better this time with size little big, but who cares of the size of aida it can do any size of cross stitch no matter. That is all finish and ready to frame it.
i am addict to cross stitch i would do 4 projects at same time back and forth i know i am crazy but expert on cross stitch can do that so i am expert on that so i would be able to do that. I am finishing Iwonka’s wedding present, it is almost finish all i have to do backstitch to finish. i am doing Gabe’s belate birth announce because when i did the bear birth announce and it look too girlish for him so i decide to do that for scott and steph’s since the baby is going to be girl so i am doing that for her when she is born. Gabe’s present are nearly done i am now on Lion and the Tiger.
i like quiet weekends when i have been out lot and feel like wanted to have quiet weekend that i wanted to enjoyed. I always enjoyed quiet weekend when i wanted some quiet time. I love weekends to relax

the trip have changed

the trip to Minnesota have changed from August to September i think it will be interesting trip who knows if the leaves will change to fall color by that time, and then the weather would be cooler and wouldn't not affect the swelling of my left foot which i am having problem try to keep it down even with high humidity. i hope that the weather will not be so hot by the time i go there. i really enjoying going to Northern Minneosota, it was fun to have relaxing vacation and be away from everything that are very stressful. i need to have relaxing week. I don't have problems of going to Minnesota in September, it will be an interesting trip.
i have few things that i plan to do while i am there. there are few books that i would like to finish reading and also there is few cross stitch projects that i would like to start and also some of the projects that i would like to finished also.
i have switched some of books lists that i have made before and so are the cross stitch projects that i have planned to do and also have switched them. i can't wait to get start.

Future Planning

i am going for the driving test hopefully soon, very soon hopefully this end of week i hope. i think mom is kind of nervous and scared for me i don't blame her for feeling like that but mom is not showing her feelings to me oh well. It is time for me to be on my own i am too old to depend on mom and i am getting tired of mom whining about that she and dad won't be living forever it really hurt me to think of that, i know we don't live forever but it really make me feeling fear of wanted to try to be on my own. Without telling me about not to live forever that will make me feel that i can do things on my own.
I can live on my own i always looking forward to live on my own for long time, soon if i pass my test then i will start looking for place of my own soon i have all the apartments on the lists to look at. I hope that i find good Apartment that i like, I already like one Apartment and also it allowed little pets like my dog. My dog will live with me for long time.

on road to be independ

i am Very disappoint at mother for not taking me to DMV for my driving test it have been twice this week that i admit to get my driving test and did not get one sighs i hate when mother not put off some of the things like taking me to DMV only she did was just do cleaning instead of putting it off for while i am VERY disappoint in her and her attitudes i guess maybe i have to do it BY myself sighs...
I don't understand why mother not wanted me to drive i think my feelings is that she have attitudes of me driving it might be that she thinks i couldn't drive but I wanted to drive to be VERY independ of mother so i don't have to depend on her for that.. and other thing is that she might not like that i am on my way to be independ and getting away from her
Once when i go on my own to be independ that i won't see my parents for while i need to be myself for while, if i need them i will but not LOT.
I can't wait to be on my own

my life sucks

i feel my life sucks
i begin to dislike one of my forums *alldeaf* it sucks big time. i have been ignored in there, so i guess i better stay away from there for while. i guess i am not important to be interested to be friends with well that how i feel i feel SO alone
i don't have lot of friends i guess they are ignoring me when i am try to talk to them, it really hurt my feelings.
i guess they don't wanted to be my friends alright i will be all alone i don't need them i will blow them off leave them alone who cares about them blah

August have come

Month of August is here
i have few books to read for this month that i have plan to read. have few cross stitch projects to finished one is jungle birth announce, and Iwonka's wedding present that i am making for her.
i am feeling depressed today since my mother ruined my goal to look for jobs it seems like she not wanted me to work i wanted to work to support myself so i guess i better get moving and look for jobs in OTHER state not in michigan it is lousy state. even lousy state to live. i wish i have move out long time ago sighs. Mother ruined my happiness, I don't know how to be happy when my family are on my case and control my life. I felt i will never be happy ever. Only i can be able to be happy if i am alone and away from my family.
i hope to get away from my family in the future to stay away from them for while i need break from them for while. I really need to be by myself for while so i can manage my moods and etc,,, all by myself without them trying to control me, I need to control myself without them.