future plans

i did watched the movie with mom last night Madea goes to Jail and it was ok but if it comes out in DVD i will rent it and i will understand what plot is about. But i can tell by the action as it was funny. i have few movies i wanted to see. Marley and Me is one of them maybe i will wait to see it on DVD cuz i knew it will make me cry. I need to catch up with all the movies i have plan to see but haven't seen yet but i will make a trip to blockbuster to get few rentals.
i am having my driving lesson in 2 Weeks and i am nervous like hell but i already have the experence of back of the wheel but it was so long that i have done. my cousin will be so excited that i am about to learn to drive he was very supportive and know that i would be very good driver that i always knew i will be. Of course my friends and my brother too. mom and dad need to be more supportive than make excuses for me they have for years. Sighs i know. but i am glad i am about to be driver soon about time. i felt i am too old to be depend on mom and dad, and i need to be out much.
i am going out tomorrow with friends to Detroit for the potlock dinner at the church. I am making pasta salad.

i feel so sad today

i feel so sad today as my SAD hit me and i feel tired all the time. i did had nap earlier but i felt little better
i feel like wanna something sweet. i am hoping that my SAD will go away, i saw the book about SAD i guess i better get that book soon. i hate SAD as i feel that it is taking over my life.
My dog Pappy keep me from being insane. He does make me feel better when he pile up on my face and holding me tightly. I don't mind he does things to me like following me around, as i love him for. His favorite spot was behind my back cuddling on the big chair in my room. He likes to hang out with me.
i guess i need to rent some movies as i felt like wanted to watch movies. Maybe soon i can go in blockbuster to rent few movies.
i have few movies i have in the the list that i made only few movies i wanted to see was Anne of green gables series from TV that i saw long time ago and i kind of miss watching them.
i really enjoyed watching Bones the tv show. i am now catching up with the tv show Bones in TNT as rerun. i am glad that i got the chance to watch Bones as rerun.

New Research

I haven't done some research for while now 

as I know that I haven't blog about Haunting stuff for almost 1 1/2 months but I am think of what research I would wanted to do I brought meta paper package perfect for my writing researches. I put in my green blinder only for haunting researches. I need to get all the hauntings researches to look at and research on them again. 

I am starting to make list of new research I would think of. But I don't have anything to think of, I think abandoned places would be good researches as it can be part of haunted places. As right now I am interested in abandoned places and I am thinking of what abandoned places I would like to do. I have now researching abandoned places around my area. I am thinking of maybe taking pictures of the abandoned hotel there that was abandoned for long time maybe I can do that when I get in town and take pictures.

had been a quiet weekend

it was so quiet weekend
i didn't go to church potlock dinner with friends yesterday for some reason of the snowstorm that hit my area and the road was dangerous to drive on. But it was better than risking to go out in this snow weather. There will be other one soon but i am not sure when but of course every month anyway. i made pasta salad for the dinner but instead of not go i had some it was good then i will make other one soon.
i finished one book and start on 2 books that kept me busy and at same time, i can do reading 2 books at same time. i like to read on quiet day. Often as days have been quiet. i like to read books.
i am watching amazing race 14 for reason of deaf boy with his mother in the show. As the show is little confusing as it wasn't caption ugh until later in the show jeez. Oh well. i hope it is not my TV as i just brought it few years ago. i hate to waste my money for new TV or i think the fund of the captions were not very good i guess. i just hate when captions are losing the funds to keep it going i depend on the captions of course deaf people depend on captions.

Relaxing day

today is relaxing day
but i am going out later to get things before the weather get bad later this week. I am plan to get crayola 64 colored pencils for my cross stitch pattern projects, i am plan to buy more flosses and maybe more aidas. i will make more copies of the cross stitch pattern graphs later at kinko's as i not wanted to make copies at my home copier as kinko's is best for more copies faster. I need to find a day to do that maybe i can do that when i go in for my haircut but i will find a way to do it before i go in for my haircut later next month. I will make sure of my trip to copy shop to do my graph copying. I can't wait to do it. i am trying to finished my book before i start on new book list for march.
i always talk to my friend about our plan to get together as she wanted me to go to cleveland to see her in summer time i am planning on that to see what month will be best as July is not good month for me as i always have swell left leg when it get worse every July but i can prapare to get things together for my leg like ice pack and allergy medication. i am thinking of buying few books for this summer reading, but i am not sure of what books i would like to read.

today is valentine's day

Happy Valentine's Day



i am at my sister's place right now and soon as we arrived it got so crazy as the dogs got so excited to see others as they haven't seen each other for while i am sure that they missed each other.
i did enjoyed eating the cookies as i felt like wanted to eat cookies. right now i am hanging in alexa room relaxing with Pappy.

About stupid EX

i am little depressed because all suddenly i thought of my ex jeez why do i think of him now as i am moving on oh man damn it i want him out of my mind period i don't need to deal with him now. he not worth to think about anymore, i don't think of him i don't miss him and i don't even love him anymore as i find that i don't, i find that i don't miss him at all. I now always think of what guy would i meet and have relationship with i don't know how long that will be i would love to have guy in my life so my ex can't get me, part of me i am so worried about coming back to him as i don't wanted to anymore as i think him as JERK!!!!!!!. i don't need relationship drama from him scoff. But i can stand up for myself and stand on my foot.
we don't talk anymore as i can see that we are not friends as he thinks we are but we aren't because we don't talk to each other anymore. i changed my mind after we broke up that we not be friends as i don't wanted to be his friend. So i stop talking to him at all. As i need to move on with my life not to worry about stuff.

mild weather week

this week as beginning of last Saturday it was much warmer and this week it is warmer mild temptures as it will be more warmer tomrrow and wednesday. Pappy and i are enjoying the temptures while we doing our walks as Pappy needs walks that he didn't do much walking in this winter. i am sure that it will end soon but i am not sure of that. maybe will have snow before spring comes.
i am enjoying it right now until who knows snow come back.
i am feeling depressed for the reason valentine's day is coming and i don't have no one to celebrate with that why i hate valentine's day blah. but i am going to enjoyed the weather this week rather enjoying valentine's day eek.

feeling better

i am feeling better from the flu for last 4 days it was awful that i wouldn't eat more. but now i can eat more heh. i am glad i am better, i hate to be sick. i have been writing my big story as it is my favorite that i have been write it for so long as i orangized the story recently. i need to take care of myself by need to eat more food, so i don't get sick. i don't eat much i am wonder that why i kept getting sick cause i don't eat much.
I need to go to Target to shop for my personal stuffs. i am little anxious to get them. Also Pappy's things too of course one thing baggies that are very important. i am thinking of want to check out JoAnn. not been to JoAnn for while now as it is time to make the trip.

sick with Flu

i am sick with flu this morning i am ok but still feeling sick. Right now i am drinkin tea.
i was SO depressed last night after finished my book Marley and Me oh my god it was really sad in the end but it was really good book that i wouldn't stop reading the book that i finished it in 3 days and i really enjoyed read the book that i will read it again in future not sooner but much farther that i will no know how much and i will keep it in my books keeper box.
Reason i was so depressed that i cried for everything, the death of my cat that i miss him so much, my break up with my ex which i feel so stupid to have relationship with when he dumped me. But i am feeling better now that i have cried it all out, as when i done crying and i feel better after done crying i guess it always better after have keep the feelings holding down for so long and it can just exploded unexpectly just like a bomb going off, That what i felt last night.
my dog, Pappy is near my side he always stayed near my side. He hold me as he knows that i was sad, so sad that make me feel better that he is there for me. I am lucky to have Pappy in my life.

February is here

i wouldn't not believe that February is here and Valentine's Day is a week away which is on Saturday
i am keeping busy even with my dog. i am having hard time catching up with Pappy as he need to go potty as he didn't and he had potty on carpet ugh make me pissed off at him for doing that as not let me know if he needs to go out i hope this spring and summer will be better as i am planning to get new way to get him to go potty in winter time maybe i need to make a coverage for him so he can go potty without me shoveling out. it is only way to test it. But i don't know if it will work but just wait and see.
Only way i need to get him to wear belly band that all to prevent him from going potty in the house. i am going to "train" him again not to potty in the house when he wear belly band. I hope it will work. i am doing different thigs to train my dog, Pappy to do it is never stop to train always train no matter what it is as i not wanted him to forget what he is train to do.
I need to go out soon hopefully this week that i will go out do something. i am having small break from buying cross stitch stuff
I love shopping so this time i will go shop for my personal stuff. But i can get more cross stitch stuff later maybe near end of month as i am saving money as i am doing this year.
my little niece is 3 months old today