My feelings are getting worse, My depression is getting worse. I am feeling so lonely. I need to get out of Michigan badly, So I need to have new life. I am anxiously to get out of Michigan. I felt that I am not allowed to move out anymore. I need to get my control of my own life not others. I really wanted to get out of there quicky.
I don't mind move to Ohio or New York. I always wanted to move to New York since I visited there twice.
I wanted to have relationship, I never been in relationship since I got engaged, I blamed myself for letting my ex-fiance go. But I never love him, our relationship was too fast that I didn't have time to fall in love with him when I didn't know him very well.
Saturday, July 14, 2012
Sunday, July 1, 2012
July is Here
I wouldn't believe that July is already here. As today is first day of July.
I am feeling kinda of little down. I am sad. I am having SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder) time right now. It is kind of weird to have it right now since it is summertime mostly usually I get them in winter time. I guess that part of it is that I was thinking how much lonely I am, that possiblity start up the sad feelings, I think I need to write how I am feeling. I am not going to write about it in here. But I can write some of it in here.
I am feeling much alone, I felt that I don't have friends anymore. I found out that my friend plan to go to Cedar Point and she didn't even invited me. I don't know why she didn't asked me when we were together last time. I always felt that I am bad friend, that no one wanted to be friend with me. I felt that no one cares about me anymore that they don't visit me anymore.
I felt that I don't have a life anymore I am much feeling that I am in mother's life that don't go out often anymore.
I hope that I need to go out to make me feel good. I need to go out, I am anxiously to go out, I hope that it won't be long until I go out. I would like to go back to the mall soon because the last time I went there I found few things there that I wanted to get. I always feel better when I shop. I need shopping therapy.
I am feeling kinda of little down. I am sad. I am having SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder) time right now. It is kind of weird to have it right now since it is summertime mostly usually I get them in winter time. I guess that part of it is that I was thinking how much lonely I am, that possiblity start up the sad feelings, I think I need to write how I am feeling. I am not going to write about it in here. But I can write some of it in here.
I am feeling much alone, I felt that I don't have friends anymore. I found out that my friend plan to go to Cedar Point and she didn't even invited me. I don't know why she didn't asked me when we were together last time. I always felt that I am bad friend, that no one wanted to be friend with me. I felt that no one cares about me anymore that they don't visit me anymore.
I felt that I don't have a life anymore I am much feeling that I am in mother's life that don't go out often anymore.
I hope that I need to go out to make me feel good. I need to go out, I am anxiously to go out, I hope that it won't be long until I go out. I would like to go back to the mall soon because the last time I went there I found few things there that I wanted to get. I always feel better when I shop. I need shopping therapy.
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