Getting Worse

My feelings are getting worse, My depression is getting worse. I am feeling so lonely. I need to get out of Michigan badly, So I need to have new life. I am anxiously to get out of Michigan. I felt that I am not allowed to move out anymore. I need to get my control of my own life not others. I really wanted to get out of there quicky.
I don't mind move to Ohio or New York. I always wanted to move to New York since I visited there twice.

I wanted to have relationship, I never been in relationship since I got engaged, I blamed myself for letting my ex-fiance go. But I never love him, our relationship was too fast that I didn't have time to fall in love with him when I didn't know him very well.