July is Here

I wouldn't believe that July is already here. As today is first day of July.
I am feeling kinda of little down. I am sad. I am having SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder) time right now. It is kind of weird to have it right now since it is summertime mostly usually I get them in winter time. I guess that part of it is that I was thinking how much lonely I am, that possiblity start up the sad feelings, I think I need to write how I am feeling. I am not going to write about it in here.  But I can write some of it in here.

I am feeling much alone, I felt that I don't have friends anymore. I found out that my friend plan to go to Cedar Point and she didn't even invited me. I don't know why she didn't asked me when we were together last time. I always felt that I am bad friend, that no one wanted to be friend with me. I felt that no one cares about me anymore that they don't visit me anymore.

I felt that I don't have a life anymore I am much feeling that I am in mother's life that don't go out often anymore.

I hope that I need to go out to make me feel good. I need to go out, I am anxiously to go out, I hope that it won't be long until I go out. I would like to go back to the mall soon because the last time I went there I found few things there that I wanted to get. I always feel better when I shop. I need shopping therapy.