wanted to do scrapbooks

i am thinking of doing scrapbooks i will learn and maybe i would sign up for classes but i have to make sure how much to sign up and have to pay for own scrapbooking kits to start with.
i have a idea for my cross stitch motifs to put in the scrapbook in small frame as it was my idea. i hope it will work to put in a little frame who knows. i always wanted to learn how to do it then i can make as memories of trips like cruises and vacations, gatherings even the weddings too.
i might need to do class maybe to sign up but i need to save up maybe for this summer who knows it might cost a little to do scrapbook class. But i am sure i will pay for series of scapbook class i will check that out then i can plan out.



I only wanted to say happy birthday to my nephew he is 13 today. he is teenager now wow and he is growing up that i can't believe he is. He is already a young man he is much sweetie. I miss him already hope I will see him soon as possible.

Cross stitch projects to start in 2008

i have started on some cross stitch projects for members of my family for christmas 2008
so i have to do some in each months beginning of January 2008 so i can be able to finish easier that mean i will do cross stitching everyday for few hours a time. i have to save money for the things for the projects like the threads and the fabrics.
if i am done with them all before christmas then i can start on christmas cross stitches for 2009. I am glad that I have learn to do cross stitch long time ago it is one of my favorite hobby to do i always find new projects to do.
i love cross stitch books. i have been collecting them i have few of my favorites books and i would use them much as i could use. i will look for more books on cross stitches i am sure i found few that i wanted to buy i will save money for those as well. have save money to get more frames for the projects i made for everyone. i will find some projects and start it each month depend on how much time i do on the projects
i have make lists of christmas cross stitch projects i know some of them that i have already put on the lists and plan to do. put the projects list together in a file pockets. then i will take the file pockets with me as well everytime i go in the craft stores.

developing photos

i am saving up my money for developing photos that i have been using and haven't develop them ugh also i am planning to develop some from my cruise trip and etc...oh well. my list of developing photos have grow a little
July 2007 wedding events
one more one time developed film camera of the oct 2007 cruise
6 more films that i don't remember that i have taken of shrugs. will found out when it is developed. Then i will tell what the are.
But i have been saving money so far. i am keeping up with saving money for the developing the photos. i love taking pictures and etc... also i love digital cameras better than the film cameras because it cost to get them develop oh well. i like to do something with the pictures like put them in scrapbooks and photo albums and etc... i love to look at pictures and they are memories that they hold it freeze the time of what we did and etc... i hope to get the film developings done soon.

had fondue

i had fondue last night at dinner it was so good not had it for so long i am glad that i had some last night
i love these stuff and i will buy my own fondue set so i can have some fondue once a month i miss having fondue so much
i am thinking of use that for chocolate dipping oooo yumm i would love to try that for like forever heh but not do the strawberry part beacuse i am allergic to strawberries
i looked up all the pictures of the fongues like chocolate fongues and etc... only that way i research what kind of fongue i will buy in the future look like i might buy 2 who knows. one for other one and one for chocolate. can’t wait to get the fondue some day in the future when i get my own place
fondue is my favorite.

Doing much better

i am doing much better after the shock about my ex and i can see what he is like oy what a ignorant smh. what a idiot he is and have no ideas about how relationship works scoffs and a wimp for not come to see me when i have no choice to go sighs. i guess he never wanted me anyway, who cares about him i am very glad that i never been with him whew.
i don't understand him anymore and seems like he is stranger to me now i feel fool by him i guess he make fool out of me when we start going out together but i am glad that it was over before we would meet i guess when he refused to come to see me that i guess he not wanted me at all if he wanted me he would come but he never did. my feelings is that he just wanted one thing from me but too bad he never got it. when i try to talk to him and he ignored me and he is just like every guys RME what a jerk he is smh. So anyway i am forgetting him he is not worth to worry over since everything are OVER between us.
i am moving on i am doing much better that i felt that worth to have someone else who would care about me enough to see me. i think he don't care about me who cares. i am FREE. he is not worth to have relationship with. i felt that he is mean person.
he is a liar. i can't believe that he lied to me about him and his new girlfriend that he wasn't with her scoffs but i am glad to find out about that it did change my feelings toward to him and see what he is. i can't imagine that he is just a jerk just like every guy whenever they are in relationship. i don't know how will i feel if i get to meet him but i don't wanted to be his friend since we are never been friends since we broke up and never spoke to each other oh well
i ONLY have my long time friend, John to talk to he is the best i ever got in friend and we have LONG history together as friends we grew up together and went to school together and even took a cruise vacation together along with other people. that vacation that we ever took for a long time and even first one as adults. He is only guy friend i have got and i am glad.

bad weekend

i felt this weekend was not so great for me
first mom told me that i wouldn't go along to CA i was shocked and disappoint i was looking forward to go there and now it is ruined. it was really bad. i wish mom would stop controlling my life let me what i wanted not make decisions for me without telling me or whatever. i will find a way to get to see my brother without mom that will be great and feel free without mom being in my way.
i found out my ex is dating someone else and he lied to me when i ask him about it before and he said no and i caught him in a lie tonight 1/12/08 when i came across to one of websites and he is so busted. I wish i haven't gone there i was shocked to see that OMG and now i can see him in different light like he not good guy to be with anymore i am glad i am not with him anymore i have weird feelings about him for a year and now i can see that what my feeling was about i hope my shock will wore out and i would not have to worry about it. i guess he not my friend anymore i have not spoke to him much anymore. i don't care i let him go he not worth to be in my life as i am glad it was over long time ago and i am moving on forward still i dealing with other things not just him. i felt that he ruined my life. He is not very honest person than i thought he would be jeez and he not very nice person either. i am glad that i didn't get to meet him in real life whew.

have to deal with my SAD

i need to deal with my SAD (season affection disorder) i have to find sometime to make my moods up and i get more energies but having my dog make me feel cheerful watching him get hopping around like running, playing and etc... but i need more than that. i have been researching all about depression and SAD as well and what need to be done and what need to do i need to be in place that have much sun and warmth, that would make me feel good. California would be good place to be at. But cruises are perfect place have lot of sun everyday. I hate what i am feeling every winter time like having SAD every winter ack. That why i hate winter even that it is not my favorite season.

i still have periods of depression

i still do have depression someday i am feeling great, someday i feel so down that i don’t feel like want to do anything just being in bed on some mornings, i had hard time getting up but still i do have to take Pappy out often as he need to go out i don’t have problem doing that. during every winter time i get SAD (Season Affective Disorder) also i already have is dysthymia Sometimes i don’t feel like wanna to go out to do something like going shopping as i know that shopping is therapy for feel better but as i don’t have much money left then i would be able to save some then i can go shopping next time i am feeling down. plus doing my hobby do help also cross stitch is my hobby and they do keep me busy and i don’t keep focus on my depression.
when i am on pms i felt crappy and feeling down but i won't let it get to me. everytime i shower it always make me feel better and feeling fresh.Taking care of my dog also make me feel good and he being on my side all the time and be my companion that i love to be his. That make me not feeling depressed

got new power cord

i am back on my laptop my new power cord arrived yesterday and did not get back on the internet until today (this morning) i am so excited and happy to have my laptop back on with new power cord i am happy that it working whoo woo
i am so relief that i can be able to order the power cord separately whew!! i love amazon that where i got my new power cord
amazon have LOT of stuff i am really impress of amazon items to buy and etc...
i love my new power cord.

Can't wait to be back on Laptop

I can't wait for my new cord to arrive then I can use my laptop again not have to use my dad's slowpoke computer and my dog can be able to cuddle while I am on the laptop. I am anxious to get on my laptop I am getting tired of using the slowpoke computer
I would love to go to 12 oaks a mall in Novi, MI I kind of miss that mall it has been long time since I have been there and wanted to go there again. I guess I have to set up a day trip there. I would love to go there again. I really love that mall it might be my favorite mall I am hoping to go there when my friend comes visit me and we can go there i will ask her if she would like to go there if she would like that then I will help her with gas and etc... I would save money for this trip with my friend.
Soon as I get the cord I will blog more sometimes everday sometimes every 2 days depend on what I am busy or not.

Happy New Year

Hi, happy new year to you all one day late oh well would have done that yesterday but it is ok it is still early in the week of new year
wow i can’t believe the year 2008 is here i will post here more and will post more about my cross stitch projects that i plan to do. Even i will post more of other thing, ideas and my plans Even my vacations hehe i hope to see more of my friend this year maybe takes turn back and forth if she comes in end of feb or early march before i leave for Calif. i might will be there in April for sure for the deaf expo then she can come over again in the summer time so we can take walks with Pappy together. I hope the plans will work. I will work with my friend around our schedules to see each other i will check the weather and money for both of us.
did VP with my friend again had good time chatting with her last this monday. My friend and i are planning to get together in late feb into early March before i leave for California in late March into early April. i hope to get my new cord very soon. seems like i have few things to do later this week i am little anxiously to renew my membership to Barnes and Noble so i can use my gift card that i got for christmas. I can't wait to check the books and use the card and also use my DSW shoe gift card.
I love gift cards I brought new makeup set from sephora that i always wanted yaya. i did used it yesterday and will use it more when i go out or feel like wanted to fresh up. i really enjoyed it.