My Christmas is good

I had good Christmas. I felt so alone for Christmas. I hope that next year will be the best.

I didn't get much presents but that was fine with me because I brought things for myself anyway. I brought myself clothes from Kohls and Gap anyway. I love my presents from my parents. I haven't gotten a presents from my brother yet. It didn't arrived in time. I was kind of pissed. I can't wait to see what my brother gotten for me. I can't wait to go to my sister for the weekend. I can't wait to see what my sister gotten for me.  

I am having Snowstorm soon. Indiana is already hit by the snowstorm as it is moving up to Michigan and moving east to Ohio. I am glad that I am not going to Ind today as I thought it is good idea to leave tomorrow instead of today.

Christmas shopping are ALL done.

I finished all of my Christmas shopping whew. I am still in depression since Friday. Victims of Sandy Hook Elementary never left my mind. They are always in my thought, they will be still in my memory forever and in all of us in America. They will be greatly missed by most of us.

I am not sure of the plans for Christmas yet since my brother and his family are not coming for Christmas since my niece and my baby nephew are still sick. I need to check with them to see how they are doing so far. I hope they are recovering well. I hope things are ok over there.

Terrifying Tragedy

Today was terrifying Tragedy. School shooting at a Connecticut Elementary school, Sandy Hook Elementary School. 20 children and 6 adults were killed, Oh My God how horrible it was. I was been crying since the news broke about the shooting. My prayers goes out to the people of Newtown, Ct and the victims of Sandy Hook Elementary. I have no idea what are the motives of this evil person for doing this, killing children what for?.
My depression is worse today. I can't wait to give LOT LOT of hugs and loves to my 3 nieces and 2 nephews to tell them how much I love them all when I see them soon. I have no more words to say.

Things Changed

Yesterday was kind of bad day due to lot of changes for the holidays. It is very worrysome that I am really worried about them, my brother and his family are not coming up for reason of my niece's illness, she got pneumonia. I understand about that because I have experience with pneumonia few times myself that last time when I was a kid that I got it so badly that I had to go into the hospital for 3 days stay until my doctor decide to relased me from the hospital that I wasn't recovering very well, that I recover very well at home.

I thought it is better for them not to come anyway and for my niece to recover at home nicely, Plus my baby nephew have bad cold and a ear infection poor little guy. My brother and my sister in law are not feeling well, they are being stressed out and very exhausted with sick kids. I hope they will have good Christmas beside having sick family. I hope their recovery move smooth, not so rough.

I am so glad that I am done with family christmas presents. I am shipping christmas presents to my brother not a problem. I am not sure of the plan for christmas since my brother and family aren't coming. I am not sure if I am going to my oldest sister or have them come up who knows.

Recovery from Hurricane Sandy is very long progressing. We are trying to raise money for the Sandy Relief.

Tree need to be done. Shopping have start.

I got the real tree 2 days ago finally, lights that I put on the tree didn't work so I had to go out get some new lights. one string of lights that goes on the top of the tree is missing, need to go out get more ugh.. Hope to get the tree done tonight. It turn out I am now allergic to all real fir trees now as I had trouble with my allergy yesterday, it is not bad today but still suffering with it.

I finished with my oldest nephew and my brother in law yesterday when I went shopping. Hope to get the 5 girls and mom in my family done soon. Also get my brother and my father books as I still plan to get for them. Already got my littlest nephew done last month. I hope to go shopping again next week for them.

I am having quiet day today with all the housework I am doing like doing laundry and get the bathtub fix.

Goodbye November, Hello December

Wow December have arrived. Soon it will be goodbye year 2012 and hello year 2013.
I have just barely start on my christmas shopping.

this year as it will be different for Sandy victims that things have changed since then. The recovery from Sandy is still going and slowly, it takes time to recover from Sandy. Recently mystery man gave money to Sandy victims, it was really sweet of him to do that. We are trying to raise more money to repair stuffs that were damaged from Sandy.

I have decorate my house with Christmas stuffs. Will get the tree soon, I was supposed to get it today but I have conficted plans but hope I will get the tree.

Sandy tree lighted up in NYC

The Norway Spruce that survived Hurricane Sandy when Sandy came ashore a month ago today (11/29/12) lighted up in NYC in a lighting ceremony for the traditional christmas holiday. The tree is truly a survivor. It was unbelieveable that the tree had survived. The tree is a 80 foot tall.

Picture posted borrowed from the yahoo. com. I credited the website for the picture. 

 

yahoo.com picture

I wish I was in NYC to be at the tree lighting ceremony and see the Sandy Tree as I call it.  I always wanted to visit NYC again. 

                    

Last week of November

I can't believe this week is last week of November before next week as it will be first week of December as December 1st is on Saturday. I felt so good of going shopping today (11/26). Got fabrics for my new projects, even ribbons for hangings.

I  got my dog Pappy christmas presents a new bed and one new toy a toy bone with red and white. Pappy like the new bed as he is sleeping in it.

Recovery from Sandy is still progressing slowly as it is nearly a month since the Hurricane hit the East Coast, Sandy cost NY 32 billion dollars in damages and loss. Even NY and New Jersey put 71 billion price tag on Hurricane Sandy of the damages and loss.

My Thanksgiving from last week was good and felt good being with my family a little bit but not so bad. My sister and I did talk about fashions and shoes.

2 birthdays

2 birthdays in 2 days..
Today is my 2nd niece birthday she is 7 today. Tomorrow is my brother's birthday. I have too many birthdays this month of November ugh, heh.

Recovery from Sandy is still going slowly. NYC got partly power back on. Hurricane Sandy cause lot of damages and there are lot of repairs and rebuilding on things like Jersey Shore, as Jersey Shore are gone. Hurricane Sandy had raked #2 as Hurricane Katrina is still raked #1 of billions of damages and human loss.

I am beginning of doing Christmas shopping, my first gift I got for my baby nephew. I found few things for my brother, my brother in law and my father, hope to get it later this month. last weekend I found things I wanted for Christmas hopefully that I would get them, if not I will get them after Christmas.

November is here

Wow November is here and in few weeks it will be Thanksgiving. I don't really celebrate holidays as I know that yesterday was Halloween but I am nice enough to give out candies to treaters. My review of celebrating holidays have change in years, that I have no one to celebrate with.

Recovery of Hurricane Sandy have begin but very slowly, it will be months until we go back where we were before Sandy hit the east coast. I have see all the pictures of the damages cause by Sandy were terrible. I am sure there is some of billion of dollars of damages. But not sure exactly how much. The East Coast won't be same.

Hurricane Sandy, A Powerful Storm

I am worried about people and my friends in the East Coast in the path of Hurricane Sandy. Sandy is very powerful storm. I hope they will stay out of the storm and stay inside safe. My State is effected by the wind from Sandy, will get raining soon.

Speaking of Detroit Tigers, they lost the world series to SF Giants. But I am proud of The Tigers to make to the world series. they had up and down year. Bless you boys.

Detroit Tigers WINS!!

Detriot Tigers Wins

they will go to World Series soon. I am not sure when have to wait for other team to finish and wins. I am not sure which team. I will see soon.

I am so excited. I hope they win the world series last time they won was in 1984.

October is here

I can't believe that October is already here. Halloween is in few weeks. I already put few halloween decorates up, I don't care. I know that I didn't post much last month for a reason.
I am kind of down right now. I hope I will be ok. I don't know when I will be ok.

"The Green Mile" Star

I just found out that Michael Clarke Duncan the star of the movie The Green Mile had died earlier, I am much saddened by his death. I love him in the movie. I love the movie, it is one of my favorite movie. It was great movie, no wonder that it was one of my favorites.

I felt that I am crying.

Sept is here

I can't believe that Sept is alreaady here..

I got new TV today. I brought dad's birthday gift. I went to Big Lots!, I got great deals from there. Not so bad. Sometimes I like Big Lots! but not all the time.

I am not going to Austin due to money problems and also I had to get new TV that is important part for me. Hope soon I will go to Austin and see my almost 2 months old nephew.

Isaac hit New Orleans on Anniversary of Katrina

Pray for people of New Orleans, Louisiana as they are bracing for Hurricane Isaac exactly 7 years after Hurricane Katrina ripped through the city. Isaac is on the same path of Katrina’s did in 2005. I hope Isaac is not bad as Katrina was. It is kind of weird.

Today is the 7th Anniversary of Katrina that ripped New Orleans. Isaac have hit the city as well today.

Isaac on same Path as Katrina's did.

Remembrace of the Flight 255

Today is the 25 years anniversary of NW flight 255 crash.


In remembrance of the victims of the crash of the Northwest Airline flight 255 that crashed on August 16, 1987 in Detroit, Michigan which was the second deadliest aviation disaster in U.S. history and the first deadliest in Michigan. Flight 255 never forget. They are still in my thought after 25 years. Never have stop thinking of them.

I have been thinking of the sole survivor of flight 255, a 4 year old little girl who survived the crash, Cecelia Cichan. She never left my thought from the day one when she was rescued from the wreckage and thinking of what she was doing since then. 

I was 15 when it happened and I never forget that day. It never left my mind. 

It was so close to home when it happened.

Had the roof fixed

I had the roof fixed. Roofers replaced whole roof with new roof. It was damaged from the hailstorm/tornado from last March which the tornado had hit Dexter, Mich. I am so glad that it is all fix hope no more damages. Can't be helped if it happens again, oh well. I had few damages that need to be done to be fix. The part of the deck is damaged but same house construction that fixed my roof will fix my deck. They did inspected everything and did saw some damages on the deck from the hailstorm/tornado, they told me that they can fix it like clean the deck and repaint the deck for me. I am so lucky. I am not sure when they will start fix the deck. I hope soon before winter comes or next spring for sure.

Had fun shopping

I had fun shopping.  I went to both TJ Maxx and Target.

I looked around TJ Maxx and found few shirts that I brought. They felt good, I can't wait to wear them. Hope to go back for more later on.

Went to Target to get 2 bins. I always like to shop at Target. I always love to shop there.

I am glad I got the chance to shop in those 2 stores that I didn't get chance to from last weekend due to my strain ankle. It is doing ok that I am not in much pain.

I got my ankle twisted.

I got my left ankle twisted 2 days ago. Yesterday was bad day due to blackout that my town got. I wouldn't be able to post my blog at all. Plus my ankle was hurting and I am sure that I got strain ankle. Picture of my strained ankle here. the bandage does help lessing the pain while I am walking. I am little limping with the bandage on. I am keeping my ankle wrapping up for few days on and off. Off for bed and shower that all I am doing.

I am glad that I still have the bandage from my last strain. It was not the first time I had strain on my left ankle.

August is here

I can't believe August is here already. Times have gone fast and soon Summer will be over.
I cancelled my Cleveland trip for some reason that it was bad timing. Plus I was feelings that trip will be bad for me.
Hope I will find something to do this weekend instead.

Getting Worse

My feelings are getting worse, My depression is getting worse. I am feeling so lonely. I need to get out of Michigan badly, So I need to have new life. I am anxiously to get out of Michigan. I felt that I am not allowed to move out anymore. I need to get my control of my own life not others. I really wanted to get out of there quicky.
I don't mind move to Ohio or New York. I always wanted to move to New York since I visited there twice.

I wanted to have relationship, I never been in relationship since I got engaged, I blamed myself for letting my ex-fiance go. But I never love him, our relationship was too fast that I didn't have time to fall in love with him when I didn't know him very well.

July is Here

I wouldn't believe that July is already here. As today is first day of July.
I am feeling kinda of little down. I am sad. I am having SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder) time right now. It is kind of weird to have it right now since it is summertime mostly usually I get them in winter time. I guess that part of it is that I was thinking how much lonely I am, that possiblity start up the sad feelings, I think I need to write how I am feeling. I am not going to write about it in here.  But I can write some of it in here.

I am feeling much alone, I felt that I don't have friends anymore. I found out that my friend plan to go to Cedar Point and she didn't even invited me. I don't know why she didn't asked me when we were together last time. I always felt that I am bad friend, that no one wanted to be friend with me. I felt that no one cares about me anymore that they don't visit me anymore.

I felt that I don't have a life anymore I am much feeling that I am in mother's life that don't go out often anymore.

I hope that I need to go out to make me feel good. I need to go out, I am anxiously to go out, I hope that it won't be long until I go out. I would like to go back to the mall soon because the last time I went there I found few things there that I wanted to get. I always feel better when I shop. I need shopping therapy.

Got the Dress

I got the dress I always wanted. The dress is a formal one, I didn't have formal summer dress for while as I need to update my summer outfit. I am glad that I like the dress as I decide to buy one.
it is rose colored dress I like the color. It goes well with black shoes because it had black stuff on it.

Wild Weekend

Wow it was WILD weekend at the reunion. Lots of fun, playing around.
I am glad that I went. I am so happy to see everyone that I haven't seen so long. I got to meet my best friend's fiancee, she is so nice and sweet.
We will have other one I am sure in 5 years, I like that and I agree it will be good that it will give everyone time to save money or give them time to collect the time off from work or whatever they do. I am glad that it will give me time to collect my time off when I get a job.

Future Plans

I invited my friend to stay at my house before we leave for Chicago and She was happy to come and stay. Plans have set to go. 

I found out that my sister and her family went to Univeral Studios to Harry Potter theme park, I felt so jealous about it. I always wanted to go there. I am thinking maybe go there myself or I would bring my friend along in the future maybe next year. If not I will go alone period.

I wanted to go things from Harry Potter theme park. I am Harry Potter fan.

June is Here

I can't believe that June is here already. Time had gone so fast.

In 2 weeks I will be in Chicago with my friend for the weekend, It had been awhile since She and I have gone together. I have some ideas for us to have girls trip together hopefully once a year, no matter where we will be at. Like at her place and my place once We save money for maybe a cruise trip and some places we like to go.

I will talk to her about that then we can plan on that for future trips so that we can save money.

Celebration Day

Mom and I went to The Henry Ford Museum in Dearborn to see Titanic Exhbits, it was cool. I did enjoyed seeing things from Titanic. It had been 100 years since the sinking. I am glad that I got chance to go there. It was great memory not to forget.
Later mom and I went to Red Lobster for dinner, Dad met us there. We ate there. It was good dinner. I did enjoyed my day. Partly I felt so lonely that no one had wish me happy birthday only my family members had wished me happy birthday that all, not much of my friends don't wish me on my day. I felt I don't know them anymore as they are not really my friends shrugs. I won't let it bothers me, I am just let them go. I am not gonna to worry about them anymore that we don't talk anymore.

New Books arrived

I ordered 3 more books and they came almost same time as well. I am having small break from ordering. I will buy more gift cards later so I can order more. That give me idea that I can use gift cards instead of using my credit card that is good way to use gift cards. I will get more later on but not right now.

Shopping at bookstore

I went to bookstore, Barnes and Noble. I renew my membership card.
I found few books to buy and also they are my summer reading project to read this summer.
The books I brought are Toxic Parents, Winter Blues, The World's Most Haunted Places, The Lost Symbol, Prince of Wolves, Chasing Fire. They are pretty good books to read.

I wanted to get trade book of Team of Rivals very soon maybe next month or after I get back from the weekend vacation. So I can return the hardback book back to my father so he can read the book.

I ordered 3 books from Amazon last week and got them all almost same time. Also I ordered 3 more from there and I already got one now. Will get 2 soon. I plan to order 3 more later on when I get more gift card for Amazon.

May is Here

Wow May is here already. In few weeks I will be 40.

not much going on for few weeks now. It is beginning to be boring for while until I go on weekend vacation next month.
not much going on now.

disappointed

I am disappointed that I will not be able to see my sister this weekend. I misses her.
I am scared as life is so short those days now.

April is here

I am sorry for not posting here much, I have been busy.

I can't believe that April is already here, Easter will be next week. I will be at my sister as she and her family will be home from the kids' spring break. Dexter, Mich is recovering from tornado that hit the town head on earlier last month, they are rebuilding. They did close a road to traffic connect to Ann Arbor due to damages from the tornado.

Hope to post little more this month, can't make any promises on that.

Had Tornado yesterday.

We had bad storm yesterday (3/15/12). Town of Dexter, Michigan was hit by tornado. Lots of damages. I am really thankful that tornado missed Chelsea, Michigan, my hometown but we did got hails and high winds. We didn't get power blackout. It was scary. I slept though it while I had nap. I was surprised that Pappy didn't go nuts with the bad weather.

Dexter make to national news that the town was hit by tornado.
I always get close calls of tornadoes in the past around Washtenaw County areas, but We did get power blackouts mostly of time.

Anniversaries

Today is 28th Anniversary of being Michigan resident. I wouldn't believe that it is 28 years since I moved to Michigan. I always hold Ann Arbor as my hometown as I have been for so long.

Also a Blog anniversary of the day I start blog since that I messed up my orinigal blog but I did fixed. It had been 5 years since I started blog.

2007 was my worse year.

Pappy's home

Pappy is home since yesterday and is not himself yet but he will be soon hopefully by next week or so. He is happy to be home anyway. I am letting him to relax more. I am sure he had problems with his hips since that he is starting to age but I don't think it will effect him much. I am watching him anyway. He had been resting all day, but I make sure he go out do his business.

I am home

I am home from Austin safety

will get Pappy tomorrow.. I am resting right now and all clean. nothing much since been on the plane. I did read 3 books of one series and is reading one book of other series.

Still in Austin, TX

Sorry for not posting my blog. I was so busy being with my family.

Scott and Steph are having boy due in July. I am excited for them. They already picked the name, Gregg Wesley, GW for short. maybe I will call him Wesley. We are relaxing at home. Tomorrow is my last day in Austin. Sat I leave for home.

I did catched up with my 2 shows, Lying Game and Switch at Birth on the computer. I am glad then I can catch up on the show on next Monday and Tues at home.

I got Texas Longhorn shirt when I went shopping for a little bit.

Is in Austin, Texas now

I am in Austin, Texas now. Have been there for few days. I have landed last Sat when I left Michigan. I am having fun with my brother and his family. Last Sunday we went to Texas Memorial Museum, it was awesome museum. I really enjoying the museum. We went to Salt Lick resturant and the food there. were so good, I like it.

I brought the shirt from there. There is 2 shirts I wanted to get, they are 1) Texas longhorn shirt but in white, because I don't look good in burnt orange color. 2) a shirt that says, keep Austin weird. That I would like to have. Scott keep asking me if I had the shirt, but I didn't have one. So I would like to have one in Scott's request lol.

Hopefully this week I hope to go to shopping, Who knows. I will wait and see if can do that or not.

depressed!! about Grant Wilson

I am depressed for reason over a TAPS member, Grant Wilson who found the TAPS along with Jay Hawes. I will miss Grant and watching him on the show, Ghost Hunters. I always wanted to meet Grant from the beginning when Ghost Hunters started. I start to teared up when he announce that he is leaving Ghost Hunters. It won't be the same without Grant. I need to get use to not see Grant everytime Ghost Hunters are on.

I am sure Ghost Hunters will still be going.

I am hoping to meet Jay Hawes someday. I am not sure when.

Meeting with my job developer

I had meeting with my Job Developer, It was great and I did give her some ideas and told her that I am not in hurry just that hope soon I can get job soon. Hope to see her again after I get back from Austin in March. I am leaving for Austin in 2 weeks.

I can't wait, it had been so long since I have been there.

We had trouble in the family, My Uncle got arrest for DUI last week for 2nd time and had to go to court and the trial date was set in late March. Last Sunday he was not responding his friends' calls and they found him passed out on his bed, they called 911 and ambulance took him to the hospital. he was in the hospital for few days. The doctor had to give him something for him to get rid of his alcohol addiction. Now he is in Nursing Home recovering from his alcohol addiction. He is doing well since. But it won't be same but he will be better. I hope he stay sober for good. He can't take care of himself anymore, must have someone to look after him.

new charger.

my smartphone was driving me crazy not let me charge my smartphone. So I had to get new charger and later it didnt charge until I restarted my smartphone and it works. It was crazy phone. Sigh that I don't have UBS plug for the computer to the smartphone anymore so I had to find another  way to get my photos from my smartphone into my computer, I am kind of upset that my old charger is being flawed.

I got new bras for the trip kinda. But I will wear them while I am at home not going out anywhere, those new bras are my "stay home" bras. I got new underwear. new wallet purse. But I can use my new wallet purse whatever. I found that my smartphone fits in my new wallet purse, good thing.

I am balancing my money to make sure I have enought for My dog's needs. He is very important that he needs things while I am on vacation soon.

February is Here

Wow I wouldn't believe that Febrauary is already here. In end of February I will be in Austin, TX. I can't wait it has been so long since I have been to Austin, I have been there few times. I like the city. I miss traveling hopefully I can travel this year around my new possibily new job. But I am not sure when I will get the job.
things with my job searching is going well. I have other appointment with my job developer on the 10th of Feb, it was good. I need to confirm that 10th is fine.

busy week

today is Friday and I had busy week.

I saw the movie abduction with Taylor Lautner, it was pretty good.

Last tuesday went to meet with Larissa my new job developer. It was great interview and I am really please how it went, and Larissa emailed me again wanted to meet with me again on the 10th of Feb but I am sure the 10th will be good but I will wait and see what is next.

I hope to follow my dream to be photographer I am so glad that I told Mary about that and Larissa also. I am sure they might start on that and see. I can be assitant photographer no problem. hope things will go smooth than I thought it will. I am sure it does take time to look for job. I hope I don't have to be hired before I leave for Texas I hope not because if I get job before that then I am not allowed to have vacation for while. That I have to wait longer before have vacation time.

A Dream being on cruise trip

Oh man I had dream that I was on the cruise last night that I went with my best friend, she was in the dream with me. Man!! I miss being on the ship. I am wondering when will I be on the ship? oh well.. I hope my friend is ready to sign on then I can sign on along with her. We found that we do enjoying being on cruise together that we did twice together. 
I am hoping that it will happen soon. Very soon we might will talk and set up the dates hopefully in the future so we can get our monthly payments started if we decide when it is time.


I need to start saving money for cruise trip and paying the ticket for the cruise. Plus the the tours and shopping.

Happy New Year

Happy New Year

I hope the new year be good year for me. I hope that I will have lot of activities to do than last year, it was not much activities and sometimes they ended up being ruined from certain people in my family. I wasn't happy with their treatments against me. I hope this year my activities will not be ruined by the same certain people.

I hope that I would get job this year. I hope this year will be better year for me like meeting new guy and having relationship. I am getting tired of being alone. I have been alone too long. I hope my new guy to be better than my ex guy.