Not blog for a while

sorry for not blog for while
my power cord to my laptop broke off and i can't use the laptop because my laptop have no power and i have to use the cord to keep it running but i order new one i hope i will get it i hope i don't get rip off by not getting the new cord i am keeping my finger cross
i hope it will arrive by this week of new year
i was not feeling so good yesterday 12/29/07 i was sleeping all the time but i keep make sure my dog go out. but today i feel alright but not 100% but still feeling alright. i really hate to use my dad's computer i have been using Dad's for few days since my power cord broke off.
i am seriously going to save money for NEW laptop hope will get it sooner maybe in March or April who knows.

Merry Christmas

Hi, merry Christmas to you all
i have good christmas i am at my sister’s now
i did open my presents from mom and dad last night and left for my sister’s and this morning watched the kids opening their presents and ours as well. having christmas party all day eating all the foods and they are yummy have some of my favorite christmas foods yum. i did relaxed all day Pappy being with Linky and Brava playing around and hanging out with me as well did had nap cuz had bad night trying to get Pappy to calm down to sleep i did had good nap and i am trying not to sleep much i did read my book santa cruise i did review my book and my nephew's book of same book, the Legend of Holly Claus it is pretty much same. i feel good that my book is worth of reading.
i got neat presents from my whole family i love them.

Christmas

christmas will be here in 3 days wow times have gone so fast and the year will be gone in a week even thou new year will be here as well.
christmas is one of my favorite holidays beside halloween i love the lights outside make the houses beautiful and christmas trees to make the house look christmasy
i love presents (give and receiving) I hope that I would get something special for christmas this year maybe not but i don’t mind that anyway heh. But i will love all the presents i got this year anyway
i hope that next christmas will be better that i will be all prepared of planning and etc...plus i have whole year to do next year.

water line under the house leaked

i had leaked water line and it was under the house under the basement and the guys from the city came to clear the snow off the grass yesterday and this morning they digged out the dirt out and found that they had to get bigger digger to dig out more dirt and then to fix the line had to dig 8 feet to get to the line to check true enough they found the leak line it was under the house so they had to call the plumber to fix the line replace the line to where the line would be, not under anymore they had to seal the pipe that goes under the house and to add new pipe to the side of the house.
sound like it is the expensive thing to pay look like 1,200 dollars to pay not so bad but still expensive to pay. i am very glad that they fix the line in one day the front of house is mess with dirt have to wait until spring to fix the landscape it is very expensive to re do the landscape over again

here are the picture of the replacing the leaky pipe


clear off the snow


starting digging


digging deeper


new pipe


big mess after fixed pipe

all about Pappy, my dog

Pappy is doing good job going to his spot for potty since the storm i am proud of him to go and he even braved to walk on the snow after carry him few times until he start to walk on the snow and he did it now on then i don't have to carry him lot but i will later when i get more snow but i might to clear the path for him to walk around to go to the potty spot. I am sure he will get used to the winter.
when spring comes i will takes Pappy out for short walk in the morning, long walk every evening and short walk at night before go to bed. i can't wait until spring and summer to come. i am thinking of moving south not for me but for Pappy as well so he don't have to deal with cold weather. i hate cold weather as well and i felt it is bad for my mental health and i need sun.
Pappy love to cuddle with me when we go to sleep and even when i takes nap even when i sit in the chair he lay next to me on the chair lucky the chair was big enough for both of us. i am thinking of getting a new chair i am going to make sure the new chair is roomy not too big or not too small for the room and both of us. i guess i have to save money for the new chair i might have to get it on last of the list i need to get, computer is on the top and new mattress is next on the list.

got snow

i had snow storm today all night into morning got about 15 inches of snow that is lot in one day wow i like snow but not lot
i am glad that now it had calmed down enough to shove the snow off the driveway i hope it will last long before the next one who knows snow is pretty white stuff and much fun to play in the snow. i not mind being stuck at home it is perfect time to relax and get things clean up and etc...
i had problem with Pappy try to get him to go pee but he refused so i have to figure out other way and my sister help me with get Pappy to go pee she had idea that we will go to place that have little bit of snow on the ground so Pappy and i went out i had to carry him to the place and then there was place with little snow oh whew and Pappy did went yaya good boy, Pappy heh then i will continue with what we have to do. It was Pappy's first encounter with LOT of snow. His encounters with snow before were not much snow like this one.
i had good nap so was Pappy he slept by me having nap with me aww i am lucky to have him. i have to work on try to get things work out around Pappy and me this snow thing even works yay
i hope snow stay on the ground so we would have white christmas but i doubt it won't be but have to wait and see

have started christmas shopping

have started christmas shopping and I love to shop for present for my family members as i know what to get for everyone and i am done with my brother and his family and then i have to sent packages to them in CA t i am not finished yet only 2 people left to finished hope to finished by next week
i love to get cards from my friends and reading their yearly letters what they did during the year what they have been up to and etc... i love holidays very much i have good holidays so far. I am planning to get cards for my family
i love to spend my time with my family during the holidays

been so busy for few days

sorry have not been blog so long
my blood had lowered from 6.0 to 2.3 when i went for other blood test last this monday i am glad it did went down whew
it was scary last thursday but good i ate green veggies to lower the level whew i miss eating veggies like salads and etc...
i was busy being in much pain from my fall 2 weeks ago but it is getting better but not fully still have some pains and pitch nerve on my back. i am done with cards and they are ready to mail hope this week i will mail them to my friends. Last Friday had my VP fix and i talked to my best friend on VP this last monday i am glad that my VP is working whoo woo i ask her to help me check the VP to see if it is working and oh yeah it is working yea
last sat went to craft show i love craft show got one thing for Pappy for the tree. I brought some of the dips to make i love the country home creations dips they are so good yum they always at the craft shows every spring, Fall and Holiday shows every year i hope to go there again in spring time. Kathy ask me to come along with her and Mark to deaf Jackson social and i did came along and had fun with my friends there hope to go there again next month. i begin to love being with my friends and get out of house that i am glad to get out whew. I am glad that i am be able to get out of house and go out to do like go out for fun, and etc... i am glad that my friends help me to get out even go out with them.
it had been crazy few days i hope everything will calm down since my back is getting better

Update on my health

Last Night i had my blood test and my blood level went up and it was scary because it was up too high above the goal range and i had to get it down like eat green veggies it help the blood level go down i only love to eat green salads and get my doses of medication down. my blood level had been up and down like crazy never been on even level for long, hopefully soon it will stay on the goal level long enough that i would be able to eat green veggies without any problems like going down too much,
Today got my VP fix and i can be able to talk to my friends on VP. i hope nothing will go wrong or my dad unhook the VP like he did before sighs i hope he don't do that again. I need to review all the pluggings and make sure where all the plugs goes if Dad do that again then i have to do over again and get it back on and fix it i have to practice review so i won't mix the plugs up ant etc... i am so happy that my VP is all fixed heh then i can talk to my friends on our VPs

this week update

my back is getting better from the fall i had last week i am ok but still have the pitch nerve in the back still can feel the pain but i am feeling lot better than it was before i was much in pain after i fall. hope it will get better before i need to get things done like clean up my room and etc... it is little messy right now. i always like to keep my room clean. i might will have my friend over to fix my tv hooking ups
i will mail my christmas cards, wrap some of my presents and etc.... i have lot of things to do before the year end

happy December

it is december now and few days until christmas i have lot things to do this month like getting presents for everyone
i have already start my chrismas cross stitch, Christmas in the woods i have few cross stitch projects to do for next year probably each month as i will try to do to finish might be easy that way but i will only to try and see if that way works but i will always have 2009 to do also if i don't finish some of the project by that time and i can start when that year begins.
i can't believe year 2007 will be gone and 2008 coming up i can't wait what 2008 will have for me. i hope it will be good year for me.

My Seasonal depression is back

i am feeling down again now with winter coming up i guess my seasonal depression is back it always come back during winter time every year which i really hate sighs. But only i can’t help feeling that way. Only i need to keep my vitmains intakes every day and Pappy to keep me busy and etc... maybe have to go back to my psychologist who did help me at first place when i came to his office for maybe some help. of course shopping i feel like wanna to go shopping again. I did went shopping while i was on cruise but now i have a feeling of wanted to go shopping again but soon i will go. i am trying to avoid buy stuff so i can be able to save for new computer. Pappy have make me feel better no matter how much my SAD have suffered.
i have it every year now last winter was so bad that why i went to see my psychologist and get some help to deal with and i am glad i got some help and it is helping and i don't feel much worse than last winter that i can be able to deal. i felt more stronger than i was before.
But i need to deal with my feelings, and let my family to know of my feelings and respect my feelings. Even my anger toward to my family i need to stop being angry with them because it wasn't not helping me and them to handle and i am working on it not to be angry and etc...

got the book that i always wanted

Legend of Holly Claus


i got the book that i borrow from my sister and read it and really love it and had been looking for it for like 2 years i think
finally i found the book and got it yaya then i can read it during christmas time it is a christmas story and it is called Legend of Holly Claus and i love the book i am really glad that i got the copy of my own then i can read it over and over even at christmas time or anytime of the year when i feel like of reading that it is one of my favorite christmas story i was glad that my sister had it and i read it and really into reading that book i wouldn't put it down it was really good book.

Pappy's encounter with snow

Pappy had his encounter with snow when it was snowing so hard that it sticks on the grass and when i took him out for little walk. He just smell the snow and felt it was cold which he really hate the cold soon when i get him some booties then he can walk on the snow when it will snow more later on hope i will get the booties soon-very soon because he really need it to keep his paws dry and warm and i need more coats for him if his other coat get dirty or wet, i would wanted to get extra for him when he need to go out. Extras are perfect when really need to wear when go out in cold. i plan to get him some jammies for inside for while maybe from the every walks we takes.
I will take his picture of him with the booties and the coat in the snow when he get in the snow. It will be fun picture of him having his first winter in Michigan. Winter of 2007 into Winter 2008 is his first Winter in Michigan
Summer 2007 was his first Summer in Michigan and it was great and he love it. Fall 2007 was his first Fall and he like it but not really fond of Fall. Spring 2008 will be his very first Spring in Michigan.
Summer and Fall 2008 will be his second seasons.
I really enjoying watching him enjoying the weathers and the seasons and how he react to.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING

Happy Thanksgiving to you all have safe holiday spending time with the families and have fun together have good fun holiday

i am doing the same spending my time with my expended family (my sister and her family with their 2 dogs, my brother and family with our parents and my dog.) and having fun with them i really enjoying spending my time with them during Thanksgiving.

i am sorry for not blog for a week

i was sorry for not blog for a week because i was extreme busy my brother and his family came on last thurs for a week until sat go home to CA and then my sister in law's brother did came last friday for few days did went home today to Louisiana, i miss him already heh he is sweet guy as i know.
they went to the Ohio State and Michigan game which Michigan lost oh well we had fun with him my brother and his wife with her brother and i went to 2 bars last night it was fun being with them. This week will be fun with my sister and her family being with us for Thanksgiving
will have Thanksgiving at home with my sister and her family and my brother and his family with me and our parents and we will go to my sister's in laws house for deserts it will be fun and more fun for few days
i can't wait to decorate the house with christmas stuff when everyone goes i don't wanted them to go but it is hard on me when i am trying to keep myself busy only for me.

busy week this week 11/13/07

really busy week this week

today will have carpet cleaners to clean the carpets in family room, the office, my bedroom and the stairs hope some day i will get my own carpet cleaner so i don't have to hire someone to do it for me.
my brother and his family will come on thurs from CA, will stay for a week until after thanksgiving i am so glad that they will stay for a week. and my sister in law's brother coming on friday for the Ohio State and Michigan game on Sat and will stay for few days. i have therapy on thurs oh well next week is thanksgiving we will have thanksgiving dinner at my brother in law's parents house but we will have some help with cooking like making pies, whipping cream for the pies, mash potatoes with cheese and maybe rolls who knows.
i bet this christmas will be quiet christmas i think we will get christmas tree early this year few days after thanksgiving. unlikely last christmas but i will found out more later on i love to decorate christmas stuff will do after thanksgiving and after my brother and his family go home so i can keep myself busy and even with Pappy around I really do love him very much sometimes it get annoyed when Pappy depend on me too much when i got into real busy mode but i always make sure he need to go out to potty.
wow now that Pappy turned 3 this year and his first Thanksgiving with me and also first christmas with me. I have plan for this christmas will buy treats, some toys and get Christmas stocking for Pappy for his first christmas with me. I am exciting about christmas since now that i brought things from cruise so i don't have to worry about buying more but i have few things for Bren, and Avery and i am finished with Alexa. But still plan to give the Adults one presents each but on their birthdays I plan that i will catch up to get more presents for them anyway.

Freedom of the Seas

I am back from the deaf cruise, Freedom of the Seas where all the deaf people went on it is all deaf cruise for almost 4,000 people. It was my 2nd cruise, but my first deaf cruise of course. I went with a good friend of mine and also she was my roommate on the cruise. All of us had so much fun visiting Islands of Cozumel, Georgetown Grand Cayman Island and Ocho Rios Jamaica, all the island were awesome and beautiful. I didn't go on explorations because they were expensive but I had fun shopping in these Islands, they have good stuffs. I start christmas shopping early that I always started. It sucks that I didn't go to Labadee Haiti because of Topical Storm Noel hit there but hopefully next time i would be able to visit there in the future. some days do have beautiful days with sunny and partly sunny.
I met new people from everywhere I was glad to be able to meet new people. My friend and I met Keith Wann's mother, Vickie Wann, she is great person and plus hanged out with her also. My friend and I hanged out with 2 people that we met 3 years ago along with another good friend of mine on a small deaf group cruise that we took with them. I hanged out with my 4 friends from my hometown and they had great time as I know that they did. It was hard to find some people around but I had so much fun meeting them.
Halloween party was awesome, I never seen so much people in little space in studio B which is a skating rink on the ship. they had so much fun dancing on the floor so many people on the floor OMG!!!! and entering the costume contests. Even the "witch" telling us scary story about the "Haunting Mask" oh man i love that story it was great heh. It was my first Halloween on the cruise.
The food was awesome really good food, I have few favorite foods on the ship that I felt it was not enough lol. So much to see on the ship, i saw almost everything on the ship my favorite places on the ship were cafe promenade, Internet deck and the pools. I like the Pools they are great places to hang out so much deaf people hanged there a lot. I got tan so fast heh for a week of sun. I tanned so easy with the sun lotions i used a lot because i get sunburn so easy that i had to be careful with, not to get sunburns.
I took so much pictures on the cruise almost everywhere even during Halloween party. I did took pictures of the Islands of course. I love to take pictures of places that I went to. I took pictures everywhere.
I hope to go on other deaf cruise someday I will go on explorations on my next cruise of course when i save enough money. I love to go on Cruises, it is one of my favorite vacation to go.

happy birthday to my 3 family members

happy birthday to Alexa 11/10/07 will be 8, Avery 11/15/07 will be 2 and Scott 11/16/07 will be 33 i know too much November birthdays ha i am happy that they will be here in michigan on their birthdays (Avery’s and Scott’s) it had been almost a year since i have seen them. Pappy just turned 3 on 10/29/07
i will have fun with them

i am back from cruise

the cruise was AWESOME. I had such fun really enjoying hanging out with deaf people on the cruise and get to meet them even get to know them. the food was good i really enjoying eat them. my favorite foods are seafoods. I llike shopping on the Islands cozumel, grand cayman, and Jamaica they had good stuff mostly i brought T-shirts and christmas gifts for my family. hope some day when i go on other cruise that i would buy more stuff. even go on tours when i have enough money to buy tours i have few tours that i would love to go on when i go on other cruise i really enjoyed tours and i love it hehe i hope to go on other cruise trip soon
i have goal to be frequent cruise goer and wanted to go on different cruise lines. I love cruises so much, so much fun to go on vacations on cruises.

the date of the cruise trip

the date of the cruise trip on Freedom of the Seas by Royal Caribbean a biggest cruiseship in the world is getting closer and i have finished filling out the applications and print the seapass online so when i get to the pier to show them i have it. i am glad i am done with it with help from my friend who is going with me and i got my documents in mail whew i have been waiting for it like weeks finally i got them then i am relieved. I have been packing for few days now so that my suitcase will be ready by the time i leave on sat. i meet laura at the airport so we can fly out of detroit on Sat morning together. i can’t wait to go whoo woo i always like to get things ready before we leave so i don’t have to do that at last min. I hate last min things.

Terri, her hubby, Phil, Kathy and her hubby Mark are going i am so excited that they are going can’t wait to have fun with them hehe and i can’t wait for Laura to meet them she knows Terri and Phil but i am not sure if Terri and Phil know that i know Laura just wait to see i will wait and see when we get on the cruise. i can’t wait i am excited and my friends are excited that i am going on same cruise as they are whoo woo. I was very happy that they are going on.
I love cruise they are awesome vacation place to do hope sometimes in the future i will go again and again with Laura maybe with Kathy and Mark they went on cruises lot i am glad i am sure they will go with me and Laura i am sure of. i will check with them again to see when they will go again if they do i will make sure i will sign up for me and Laura so i will ask them if it will be alright if i would come along with someone like Laura who go with me anyway.
Laura and i have a goal to be frequent cruise goers like going on cruise often as we can who knows we will try to go on once a year if we can or 2 who knows it will be likely that we will do the 2nd one if we would try to do but we might will do biyearly who knows we will see.
this trip will be my 2nd cruise trip I hope to go on more cruise trips in the future.

Halloween

boy Halloween is coming up next week and it is one of my favorite holidays beside Christmas. I will be on the cruise during Halloween time again last time i was gone on Halloween i was on my first cruise. Pappy’s Birthday will be 2 days before Halloween that mean i will miss his Birthday, i feel so bad about that i hope that mom and dad will help Pappy celebrate his 3rd birthday. Hope next year when Pappy turn 4 i won’t miss his Birthday i hope not.
I love Halloween beside Christmas. I love Halloween decorations, they are so cool and awesome and little spooky in the air as i would make it looks. i like to decorating in my room if i have house of my own then i can do that all over the house. I was gone on Halloween last time I was on my first cruise trip and came home on Halloween night before it was over oh well heh

travel with the dog

I hope to visit same places in the future. I have some favorite places to have vacation.
Now since i have my dog, Pappy. he can travel with me everywhere i go so i have to do research which hotel that are pet friendly and etc... and some places that allow dogs. when
i go to hotel i get their bookets of all the hotels for the pet allow policy that will be more easier for me to set up for my future travel with Pappy. I hope that he will enjoyed travel with me. i can’t wait to travel with Pappy in the future. I hope Pappy will enjoy travel with me around.
Pappy did traveled with me to see grandma it was his first travel with me, grandma’s place was the first place. my aunt and my uncle cabin in northern minnesota was the second place Pappy was at for a week, he did had fun there. He and Lulu did had fun together and did the bond thing. i am proud of Pappy to get along with Lulu i think Black Labs are his favorite just like they are my favorite.
Pappy is becoming good travler as i am heh. I am happy to have a companion to travel with me like Pappy. i need to buy travel with pets books i know where to get petsmart already had the book i was looking for but i can check Barnes and Noble for the books on travel with pets anyway. i am checking on Amazon.com to check those books. i will buy the book from petsmart later on maybe before next travel with Pappy. Even make list of hotels that allowed pets and someday i can go back to same hotel to stay again. i hope to take him to my sister lot so he can socialize with my sister 2 other Iggies.
i love Cruises alot my goal to be frequent cruise goer even Laura too that is her goal also
i bet Freedom of the Seas is my favorite cruiseship, but i have to be on the ship and see everything to see if it is my favorite or not, but i hope it will be my favorite.

reseaching ghosts and hauntings

i love to learn about ghosts and since i was little that i start to researching Ghosts and never stop always make new research each time i thought up and make the lists of the research that i have done it is getting long. Some of the researches have become interested i have few favorites that i do over and over like add some of researches and updates. Sometimes i updated my researches like add to the old reseaches
i knew about ghosts since i was 8 and been researching about them since then but did stop for while until i got my interest in ghosts back and been researching or much long than i used to when i was young. I always find a wayinto reseaching of ghosts. I love to researching ghosts and hauntings even reading the books on. sometimes i separate the researchings to some “major” topics researching and i look up and add more to the research.
i start collect them (books) very serious right now i am beginning to collect ghost stories of the each states (separate) books each. I am researching all the books have written and i look up and whenever i goes in book store i buy those. I love Ghost/hauntings books i beginning to love to buy them and start the project to read them and add to the research of what i learned and look up what i can find.

reconnected with my old friends

i have been reconnected with my old friends from long time ago that i disconnected from and i am going to contiune to keep touch with them with out break off the friendship i have build with long time ago i really happy that i reconnect with them so i decide i won’t make mistake again by not keep in touch with them i will keep in touch with them much as i can to keep update with each other and of course visting with each other as we can. I really like them very much i am really glad i regained my friendship with them. Some of them are going on same cruise as i am going on i am really glad that they are going also. I love them no matter. i am really glad that we decide to keep in touch and try to see each other often and etc...i hope to travel with them sometimes who knows that will happens i am so glad that i saw them again.

i love cafepress

i love cafepress it is a website that you can buy lot of gifts and lot of designs on the items and there is LOT of selections to choose from and i have been writing down lists of lot of designs on the items that i would like to order
i have favorite items from them.They are mugs, messager bags, tote bags (if there is no messager bags on the items list that i wanted), journal books, and shirts of course i can’t wait to buy them some day and i can’t wait to show off them when i order them and drinking out of the mugs use one of their bags. i can’t wait to collect them heh
see that why i add the cafepress website on the list here in the blog
soon as i save my money and then i can start chose what i would like to buy there is lot of stuffs to chose maybe i will buy Italian greyhound stuff first maybe who knows hehe
Can't wait to get started.

woking on haunted house cross stitch project

i am working on haunted house cross stitch project for halloween but i am not sure when i will be finished in time for halloween maybe i will be finished in time for next halloween in 2008 when i saw the cross stitch pattern of the haunted house and i said to myself ohh that will be great to make one so i am making it. i really like the pattern of the haunted house
i found out that the project had different parts of the threads so i had to go and get some soon i might not be able to finish that in time for halloween but i might be able to finished in time for next year (2008) halloween when i get more threads later on. I was glad that i found this project and have started it takes time to finished but i don't mind that since i had few projects that i would like to finished. I need to finished this project soon before next Halloween 2008 so i better get more threads soon then finished the project.
i really enjoying doing the project it is great. i was so glad that i learn how to do cross stitches i found it so much fun to do rather be so bored. they are my favorite hobby.

i love Ghost Hunters

i love Ghost Hunters the TV show on scifi a cable channel they are so cool to watch. i love all the TV shows about hauntings and ghosts.
Ghost Hunters is the best i really love it and i am glad that Ghost Hunters really is good show on SciFi i am glad that i got to hook on ghost hunters like addicted to watching Ghost Hunters for hours and hours hehe.
i have seen season 1, season 2 , season 3 will plan to see season 4 soon i am planning to get season 1 and 2 dvds and soon season 3 later on when i save more money and then someday to get season 4 if Ghost Hunters sign up for season 5 that i will be so excited hehe. But i will wait and see if Ghost Hunters will sign up for season 5 when season 4 wrap up.

Happy October

wow October is here already time had gone by so fast
Days of the Cruise are getting closer and closer I am counting down the days heh. i am about to get ready for cruise like packing and pick up few things that i need for cruise like batteries and camera films like disaposable cameras or camera films for my old camera i better get to check to see if there is films out there somewhere before if i decide to buy disaposable cameras maybe buy memory card for my other camera who knows. Can't wait to get things ready to pack and etc...
i can't believe Halloween is coming up, one of my favorite holiday beside christmas i will be on cruise on Halloween it will be much fun hehe. I can't wait to see all my friends who will be on the cruise along with Laura and I.
as i am at home i will decorate both fall and little bit of Halloween since i won't be at home during Halloween so but i will decorate full christmas in Dec. I love decorations. Both Halloween and Christmas are my favorites.
hopefull next time i will have enough to have next cruise. i always wanted to book next cruise and have fun on the ship it is one of my favorite travels

i got my order

i got my order of medic alert bracelet that i order and paid
i am glad that i got it before i leave for cruise whew i was kind of worried that it won't be here in time when i leave for my cruise trip but it came just in time i am relieved about it i am now wearing it at first when i try to get it on it was hard to put it on but i figure it out and now easy when i figured how
now i can be able to travel easy with my bracelet so that they will know in case of emergery if something happens to me
i am glad that the bracelet came so i don't have to worry when it will arrive but it did

I love schwan’s

i got schwan’s and have ordered some of the foods for while now i love their food so good i had it before long time ago and i wish i have kept getting the food for years now oh well but happy that i am back to them heh they still have some of my favorites that i had before yum always been, i love their ice creams, breaded mozzarella sticks, breaded chicken breast patties
i wanted to try breaded stuffed breadsticks, glazed lemon loaf, cheesy quik taters, freezer to oven carmel rolls, deluxe ham and cheese omelet, chicken dummies, chicken fries, popcorn chicken, chicken bites, chicken patties nuggets, breaded chicken breast tenderloin strips, breaded clam strips. they look so yummy i will get hold of those foods later on. If i love some of them that i never had before that they have added i will keep buy some of the items.
i got summer booklet of the orders and i already order some of the items i am not going to order lot of items one time they come over every 2 weeks. i have time to order the items that i always wanted to get and try. my most favorite ice cream is rainbow sherbert which is orange,lime and lemon. That i have been ordering whole summer but still enjoying it yum.
also i got fall booklet which is 2nd booklet that i got. They added new stuff that i have tried not so bad they are pretty good
can't wait to try all of them i wanted to try.

Love to watch movies

i love to watch movies it is fun to watch them and have some of my favorite movies and there are some dvds i would love to buy i love movies i do like good movies i make list of dvds i would love to get or would like to have i guess that the list is long but it is worth to have long list of dvds to have because i love movies and love to watch them i would watch and eat popcorn. i will set a movie night and eat popcorn while watching movie. Can’t wait to do that some day in the future.
I like to rent movies if i really like the movies then i will buy some. I have few movies i would love to buy. i make lists of movies that i would love to own i will get my plan to buy movies after i got back from vacation or after christmas. i will save money so i will buy some of dvds blockbuster have good previewed dvds on sale hope i will get some later on i am making list of movies that i wanted and wanted to get them then i can watch them over and over heh
i plans to get TV shows on dvds i make list of tv shows that are on dvds and then i will get these to my collections i have some goals to collect dvds of tv shows and movies.

Remembering 9/11

never forget the tramatic event of 9/11 of terrorist attack on america prayers begin and the candles lit to the memory of lost loves i won't forget the day it happens and always remember where i was during the event it was really scary that day i am not alone everyone was scared and really sad
Rest In peace to people who lost their lives on that day

getting things ready for cruise

i am beginning to "pack" first i am getting my personal things together so i don't have to worry about it later on so i don't forget what i did pack and i get my clothes together it is not in suitcase yet but just together so i don't have to worry about miss some of clothes i plan to wear during cruise. i am going to pack my summer clothes since it is getting cooler that i might wear my fall clothes but i am making list what to take so i can recheck later to make sure what i put in the list so that i won't forget what i pick for the cruise and pack them down. It look like that I have to borrow my mother's suitcase again. Next time when i go again for the 3rd cruise i will buy 3 piece luggages. Then i don't have to worry about borrowing my mother's suitcase again since i will get my own in the future. I don't know when but i hope to get them before I book the next cruise after Freedom of the Seas for sure. i know what luggages i wanted.
i am really excited of going on the cruise. I begin to love cruises i hope i will go on different cruiseships some day like go on different cruiseships on Carnival and Royal Caribbean. I always like to try to go on Carnival to see how it goes. Royal Caribbean is already my favorite cruise company. My friend and i have some goals to go on Islands during the cruise trips, I have some favorite ports. I can't wait to book other cruise soon but i am not sure of when but i hope soon
I have few favorite places i would love to go back to visit again and there is other new places i would love to go and check out if i like the place or not if i do i would love to go back also. I hope my friend would go with me to those places, my friend love cruises so much too.

I love reading books

i love any subjects of books mostly i love mystery, and fiction. Sometimes i like to read true crime books. I do like read nonfiction. I sometimes buy book series. I like book series I would be able to follow the storylines. MOSTLY i love ghost and haunting books they are my favorite to read and of course researching. I have few favorite authors Dean R. Koontz, V.C. Andrews, and Nora Roberts i do like some of the books that other authors have written.
i have few favorite books myself that i have saved that i would re read the books again and again i put all my favorite books seperate box so i don’t have to mix them up and i can be able to save them more easier
i have so much books that i need to get rid of them soon but first need to get new boxes for them i have feeling that i might will have about 5 or 6 boxes of books to get rid of ugh!! i hope i can find place that can take the books like buy my books kind of thing so i can have room for more books in the future when i buy them
i make LOT of lists of books that i wanted to get even to buy. Sometimes i wouldn’t wait to buy i go buy fast ha i am addict to buying books ANY books that intereted me and curious of wanted to read the books. If the books looked interested to read then i will buy the books. I like really interesting storylines that i read.

Anniversary of Tragic Car Accident

Sept 3rd (today) is 13th anniversary of tragic car accident that claimed my twin cousins Tom and Lindsey 1978-1994. i miss them very much they were sweet people that i got to know since they were babies and very close relatives of mine.
when the accident occured i was shocked and wouldn’t not believed that my beloved cousins are gone forever and they were very young when they died. i was really shocked they were too young to die like that. i was really depressed and wouldn’t not wanted to deal with the world.
i was really zombie and it took me 2 years to get back to my life thanks to my family and my friends for being so supportive and try to be there for me in my time of needs. sometimes i have dreams about them being alive but when i go back to reality they are not there so they are alive in my dreams as always that i will keep that way to keep myself going.
Rest In Peace Tom and Lindsey, I Love You both forever as always in my heart, I won’t forget you all and I always will remember you.

First Day of September

wow it is first day of September time goes so fast i believe oh my god and cruise is one and half month to go wowies
today is first game for university of michigan football team playing i have to shop for my dad for his birthday oh well but i know what to get for him anyway i don't need to spend lot of money but i can on christmas anyway. Pappy is doing alright. He is sick with fever again and is on antibodies for the fever, he takes one pill a day for 20 days. for myself i am doing well and my blood is doing good at first i had hard time to keep my blood up and i hope it will stay even later on hope stay even by the time i leave for the cruise trip i am getting excited whoo woo.
i need to find a way to sell my things like books, old clothes, and etc... but i know garage sale is only one that can sell that items but i don't know if i will have it or not but i have to find a way to do that oh well but i am still researching and try to find a way to get them to sell out so i can get money. i am going to make a list of books that i would like to sell and ask some places that would wanted to buy my books. Right now i am trying to sell my old ibook laptop for a new one but i have to buy new one first then transfer my stuffs from old ibook to the new laptop then i can clean the old ibook and sell but i am not sure if old ibook is valuable to sell only i have to found out later, i will wait and see what happened later if it can be sellable.

my friend, a birthday girl

just wanted to say happy birthday to my best friend who's birthday is today
next week Sept 3rd is my dad's birthday and on Sept 14th is my sister in law's birthday so i wanted to wish them happy early birthday so happy birthday to you 2 smile i love you both i hope you all have good birthday have fun with all of your families

Silence Dinner

went to silence dinner tonight and that was my 5th one i missed 2 previous month dinners because i was busy and also being so sick but i am feeling better to go this time. Hope to go next month.
saw my friends, Terri and her husband,Phil, my long time old friend kathy it was great to see her again since long time and got to meet her 2nd husband Mark and my old classmate from long time ago Ngoc oh man it was great to see him again i was about to go to see him at his work but i am glad that he showed up yay
Kathy and her huband, Mark are going on deaf Freedom same cruise i am going on yay i am glad to hear that. Terri is going too with Phil i hope that all of us will have fun together on the cruise and maybe spend time together of course can't wait to see what we will do and plan together i think i hope so
i hope to see them again next month when we meet for other silence dinner. i really enjoyed meeting new people and reconnect old friends. i am hoping to keep their friendships going not to break off and lose touch with each other i am going to contiune keep touch with them.

Beginning of My Weekend

i have plan to relax at home and watch some movies i haven't watch for while i don't mind that sometimes i like to have some relaxing time i plan to contiune some cross stitching my project this weekend as well i am really glad that i have come back to cross stitch that i have not been for months since i became depressed and was not interested and since i am in therapy and i did help my interested to come back and it did came back i am really glad about it
i am glad that i am done shopping for Pappy and me together whew! for awhile i plan to get more things for cruise and then i am done with it i plan to get more summer stuff next summer but i have to save money first

update on my health

i had to have blood draw 2 times a week (monday and thursday) on my fingers to check how my blood level doing and i have to get a special leggings for travel that i am doing this fall i need to get like mybe 2 pairs but problem is they are expensive kind ugh i decide to check out the price and try to figure out what to do like maybe have insurance to pay for me or not but i am checking that out first to see the price i really hate what happening to me GRR i hope everything will be ok i am scared for myself i have been keeping record of my medication and how much i take and even recording my times of the injections (shots) that i take myself every 12 hours each day on both side of my stomach which i am done i am much better it turn out i don’t have to get more shots until they said i have to later on if it happened. Now my stomach can heal from the all the injections that i had to give myself.
i am really glad that my town have connection medical clinic for University hospital also have lab there as well that i can be able to go there for my blood test so i don’t have to go to next town to do so that save me a trip and gas,
more updates on blood test i am on 2.5 and did had test on monday to see if it is climbing and yes it is climbing and i went to doctor today and everthing goes great whew and i might be done with blood draw until one month then time to draw again for the testing if i am still on even level i have to be on medication for 9 months i already expect to happens i might to order medical bracelet online i think for future if something happens to me. medical alert bracelet is very important. i am glad i am doing well and i am reponding to the medication and it is working great.

had busy weekend

my sister and her kids were here at my house for the weekend it was great to have them over. Yesterday my nephew and my dad went to the game while they were at the game, my mom, my sister, my niece and I went shopping it was good to go shopping it has been so long that i have been shopping since i became sick and would not be able to use my leg and my foot that i have to rest them up and I am still resting them up sighs nothing that I can do to get healed up.
So anyway I got one long sleeves shirt and a long sleeves sweater for winter. I got shoes for cruise trip. I got 2 Tshirt which were on sale also for the trip. Even i brought threads for 2 cross stitch projects that i am planning. I got 3 underwears from Victoria Secret i begin to like the underwears from them. Also they are for the trip. I will get more later on. It feels so good to buy stuffs when not been buying for so long while I am trying to saving up for the cruise trip.
I had good time shopping with them. I love shopping NO matters. I love to go to different stores and NEW stores of course
I did went to Apple Store which is already a Local Computer Store that I can be able to buy computer stuffs Like new laptop that I plans to get new one from there and maybe a iPhone from them also but i have to save for the iPhone after get new laptop anyway I can't wait to get new one then I can sell my old one since the old one is not working right need to fix it oh well So anyway i need new one anyway I am ready been like that for a year now.

Did my Mac's iPhoto Homepage

I did some change in my iPhoto homepage and updated my hompage like added 2 more in the page. I begin to love to do the pages will plan to add more in the homepage when I figure what to put in the homepage. I plan to put my trip to Ohio and Cedar Point up in the homepage soon when I get the pictures develop. It is awesome to do the homepage I really enjoyed to do that I will add more pictures in my homepage from now on as I really enjoying now than it was before as i start learn to use it like change it around and also update it. I like to look in homepages of my family like my brother's and my niece's yes, she had her own homepage too I wish my brother would add more in his homepage darn but I hope he will update his soon when he have time to do his page I hope or I can do for him who knows hehe. But I will let him do it anyway.
hope some day when I get new laptop and I will get more memory and more stuffs in new laptop I plan to get I might will get new laptop this fall maybe in Nov with help of my brother since he knows about computers and laptops I trust him with the ideas and etc... then I will add more stuffs in the new laptop. I can't wait to do that
I plan to put my cruise trip in the homepage after I get back from the cruise and that time I might be add the pictures in my new laptop I can't wait to get new laptop. I can't wait to do that. I will add more after that whoo woo need to ask my brother what is the limit in the homepage that i need to know so I might will have to get other homepage to put more in. I will found out about that later on if I can just add more in the page only to add to other homepage that can be able to open from the new homepage to the old one who knows I will found out when I get new laptop and new stuff in the laptop. If can do that then I can add more picture in the new homepage anyway.

my blood level is on where it suppose to be

i just got a call from the lab where i got my blood drawed and they told me that my level is where it was suppose to be i am little nervous if the clot have resolved not break off i guess i might will have doppler test next week who knows but i will wait and see if it had healed i am still on medication they gave me schedule how many pills to take and etc...
i hope that the clot get healed well i am really relieved that i don't have to take shots until if they said i have to go back for some reasons but now with not getting the shots for while that my stomach will get heal up from the injection areas on both side of my stomach
hope it stay away i guess i will be on medication for the rest of my life to keep the clots away and keep my blood thin but i have to wait to see if i have to be on medication forever who knows i will found out

Done with my cruise payment

i went to Mejiers to finish paying the cruise payment i am ALL done whew!!!! i am really happy that i am done no more paying and i can be able to save more money for the cruise when i am ready to leave for the cruise i am really happy YAY!! and now i am waiting for them to sent me stuff for the cruise like booklet and some tags for the luggages. i can't wait to go on the cruise 2 more months to go whoo woo i love cruises now hope in the future i will go on more cruise trips when i get chance to go on cruise
i went in kohls to find some clothes for cruise and of course i found 2 shirts really nice ones and i tried them on and really feel comfortable even i found a long sleeves shirt for winter i really like the color i found jean to replace one i have already. i am glad that i went in kohls because they were having sale on almost everything hope i will go next month or whenever they are having sale again
i love kohls very much because i love their clothes i have some clothes from there and they last long they are very good clothes they have really nice clothes not so cheap looking clothes just perfect and their prices are not so bad just right prices for clothes even when they are on sale

getting better

i forgot to write about our trip to northern minnesota and that i had fun at my aunt and my uncle cabin so was Pappy Pappy and my uncle did some bonding time i am really glad about it and also i am glad that he and Lulu had bonded over the week while we were there and they did funny things together i am glad they would be able to get along. Lulu and even Sota the red and white husky kept one dog from next door from hurting Pappy while he was in my arm on the day we left the cabin i am glad that Pappy had good time there he really enjoying his stay there. i hope to take him back again hopefully next summer.
i am little better from the medical scare i got this week with the blood clot but i have to rest up i hope this clear up just in time for my next trip in Oct on a cruise trip and i have to contiune taking the medication while i am on the cruise and maybe for rest of my life who knows just wait and see
Pappy is doing fine

my left foot screw up

i have been having problems with my left foot for 3 weeks. It had been swelling like crazy and it hurts to walk of course. I know that i have same problems with my legs and my feet for years but this year were bad than the years previous sighs i was wondering why me!! why do i keep getting so swell up every summer scoffs oh well. When my feet swell so much it hurts so much to walk. i wonder why i keep getting swell up lot
It had been long enought that i had to check with my doctor to see what the problem was may i twisted my foot that i didn’t feel it was broken or strained who knows that why i went today and my doctor sent me to hospital for the doppler test to see if i had a blood clot in my leg true enough i had it i was scared like hell because we knew that blood clot is dangerous in the body
i am glad that they caught it fast and i would be on medication fast.
Oh man i found out that i have to take shot on the "bad" left leg twice a day for 5 days UGH!!!! and i have to go in to the doctor office tomorrow morning so they can train me on the shots and 2 pills at bedtime everynight sighs and i have to go in my CVS pharmacy to record my blood level cause i am on very dangerous blood thinner medication so they have to be careful and monitor my blood level
Sound like i am taking medication for the clot while i am on cruise oh well that is life i have to deal with.

I love shopping

i love shopping i love to buy clothes,purses and shoes and stuffs of course I love bags it is my favorite things.
even shop for my cross stitch projects. i really enjoyed shopping. shopping really make me feel better when i buy things sometimes lift my moods up a little. my favorite things to buy are craft stuffs. i have few favorite stores to shop at i am shoppingholic hehe
mostly i buy books because i love books and already make list of books that i would like to read. i like to buy movies unless when they are not so expensive to buy sometimes on sale then i can buy.
since i have Pappy, my dog i begin to like to buy stuff for him like toys, treats, foods, and shirts for him to wear, more beddings and more leashes and also get more travel bags for him heh i will get more "hoodies" for Pappy for winter time so he won’t be so cold while going potty and on short walk.
i need to save money for big thing like cruise ugh ha but i don't mind to do saving.

Getting ready for Northern Minnesota

i am getting ready for northern minnesota.
i am packing some of my things and Pappy's things also and i had to go shopping for Pappy's new stuff that he needs i know what to get him i had already make list of what to get for him and for me too what we needs while we are there. i will go shopping this week for both of us. i am having my nephew this week before i leave for nothern minnesota on sat 7/21/07
i hope Pappy will have fun there. i hope i have things to do while being there i know what things i would do anyway. i know that we will have fun while being there. i will blog what we did while being there and also post my and pappy's pictures while we are there also. i can't wait to go there.
i am going to develop the pictures from my friends' wedding and the big weekend that i had. Then i will sent some of the pictures to my friends by email the pictures to them. i can't wait to see the pictures heh. i plan to order both double and CD that go in my computer and in my photo page.

what a awesome weekend i had

last weekend i had was so awesome i meet some of people from the all deaf forum they were nice. All of us had so much fun at the wedding which 2 of our friends got married and the next day all of us went to Cedar Point we had blast there. Like go on the rides and chatting the day away and etc... i even took pictures of them and everywhere. i always wanted to have friends. but i don't know how i feel right now about them i even have so much mixed feelings about them that i don't know what to do about it.
right now i am having my niece for few days and my nephew next week and he will go to baseball camp which is a day camp at University of Michigan. After the kids leave I am leaving the 21st of july to Nothern Minnesota to my aunt and my uncle' cabin with mom and dad even Pappy too can't wait to bring Pappy there heh. i am try to think what to do there. I know playing with Pappy and take him out for a walk with AC and mom and fishing ha!! and trying to go back to my hobby, cross stitching again that i haven't been for few months that i was suddenly uninterested to do when i was depressed and i will read my books that only i would do when i feel like reading when i don't feel like do cross stitch.
i like to get away from everything and everyone so i don't have to deal with everyday stuffs.

more summer plans

i have lot things to do this summer sometimes with Pappy that i have been planning my vacations for the summer
one vacation this week that i am taking which i will go alone without Pappy is to a wedding in Ohio that my 2 friends are getting married and all of us from the wedding are going to Cedar Point hope all of us will have fun there heh. i can't wait to meet all of them that i got to know from online it will be my first time meeting them. Hope they will be my friends days afterward
I love Cedar Point very much. my friend, Laura invited me to come to Cedar Point with her and Brian for deaf day at Cedar Point of course i am think of about going there again. But i am not sure if i am going depending on when someone being depend on me for something like Pappy sighs but just wait and see what happen next anyway.
i feel that they just wanted me to have boring summer but i don't wanted my summer to be bored! i just wanted my summer to be busy and etc... that way that i can be keep busy and staying away from deafchat and stupid man ack i hate deafchat so much people in there are SO immatures scoffs i think they are playing mind games thinking that they are nice but they are not nice RME. My feelings for the stupid man have change i don't have any feelings for him anymore it is gone now.
i am very happy to have Pappy in my life i just can't believe it did happened. i still can't believe that he is mine ha.
i am little better from my depression since i was in therapy it does help to get my feelings out and about my life that i wanted my own life not my parents' life and etc... i am really happy that i was able to get my life back on track and focus.
i am working on getting my life the way it was before like getting check account, start to drive again, looking for job to support myself and hope to live on my own. I am working on it very hard hope things will go smooth as i thought it will be.

later plans in the summer

My dog, Pappy got to meet rest of my family hope they will see more of him later on and i am happy that my Aunt told me to bring Pappy to her cabin in northern Minnesota and to meet my Uncle there and i can't wait to take Pappy to Northern Minnesota to my Aunt cabin and have fun with him there and etc...and also get to meet Lulu and have playdates with her everyday of course to play with her and take walks with her even spend time with her to get to know her heh. i can't wait to see Lulu i kinda of miss her since last time i saw her that was quite a while. Pappy will meet my brother and his family soon-very soon.
i wanted my friend to meet Pappy hope later in the month or next month maybe sooner as possible I hope she will love him as i do. Pappy likes people and he is about to like dogs and get along with other dogs that way he will have some playdates with his new friends. i will set up playdates with the neighborhood dogs later on hope soon. people might do the same as well i bet.
i hope that Pappy's summer will be so full with fun.

photography

i like photography i use camera alot i like to take pictures everywhere no matter where i am grins i have some of my favorite places to take pictures at and i have places i like to take pictures at they are good places to take. i do takes picture of my new dog, Pappy all the time hehe alot hehe. When i leave for the cruise trip i will use my photography skills on the trip. photography is very good hobby to do and much easier as you learn about photography i hope to get my sister to take picture of me and Pappy for our christmas cards my sister is making announce cards of Pappy’s gotcha day.
i grew up in being in photos. My grandfather was a photographer and used to own his studio and he taught me about photography i am glad that i learn about photography.

been on vitamins

I am now on vitamin and iron to get my engery when i was depressed i lost my energies and i am glad that i was be able to take vitamin rather take antidepressants and i find that vitamins are the best than antidepressants i have been on vitamins for about 9 weeks now i start to notice some different now that my moods are getting better but not full now that i can be able to move on with my life. IT seems that vitamins are working to keep me from feeling depressed. I can feel any difference now that i am about to be back to my old self.
i am glad that i try vitamins and stay on vitamins that i feel more to my old self i bet it is working as i stay on vitamins for weeks now i am not going to give up on vitamins unless if my doctor wanted me to but i am sure my doctor will not say about quitting the vitamins. i am glad that i stay on vitamins as i know that vitamins are good for me to keep my depression in control
it is working it did keep my depression in control but not fully control but it does work as i know it does.

feeling so lousy today

I have been so busy this week with my new dog that i didn't relized that i was feeling so lousy until today that i was feeling so lousy that i am not very happy of what going on but i have no idea what is wrong. The feelings were really bothering me so much that i don't know what is going on and don't know what to do. i am just to be frightened about what going on here. but i will not let it get to me much worse as i am feeling about it, i would need to let it flow by and see what will happened i won't make things worse if i say nothing about it just keep it to myself until i will found out from them that all i need to. I need to relax and not to be frightened about things like that. But i hope i will find out later on when everything calm down or whatever it is.
I am trying to get my life back the way it was before I never had a life since then that time i was not on line much or be in chatroom. I wish i haven't gone back to that chatroom last year when I left wish had to stay away from chatroom then i won't have started be in shit relationship with this stupid man sighs.
I wish that I would stay very firm that I don't need to to have relationship online that i would have turn them down. I hate to have relationships on line which I hate so much because it is fake never been real ack!! make me sick to my stomach I better off be single rather be taken anyway! because never know what men really wanted or say something else that you really expect to hear from them. Men always expect women to do all the work for them not being equal and even help. I like to be equal like if I can't do something for the men then they need to do something to make it work. I never understand men at all anymore. I hate this stupid man making me feeling insulted that I feel used by him or he feel used but i wish he won't be feeling used if I did something different to prevent problems but things are too LATE for us. Too bad that is his loss that he choose not to be in relationship with me and i won't have him back anymore. One time is enough for me. i never give a 2nd chance in relationship only once is all. break up is broken.

got my new dog already

i got my dog and the dog is italian greyhound a 21/2 years old male his name is Pappy (full name is Ch. Intergra’s In My Father’s Eyes) he was a champion show dog. Gave to me by my sister’s friend who use to own him and knows sign language i have met the man once. Pappy flew to me and met Pappy there this morning and brought him home now i am Pappy’s new mommy i am glad that i got my dog whew i was being so anxious to get him i am glad that he is here YAY! he is now my boy and of course he is mama boy now HA
he is so cute and he is much a survivor he was bitten by copperhead snake twice last fall he fought back and killed the snake and he was so sick afterward because of the poison in the system but he beat it. Pappy still have the scars bites from the cooperhead snake i can see his scars on his fur .
Pappy will travel with me sometimes not all the time this summer like maybe to my sister’s house and my aunt told me to bring Pappy up to my Aunt and Uncle’s cabin in northern Minnesota so they can meet him of course i am planning to take him there heh so he can meet Lulu, their dog gave by my cousin who use to own her .

shopping for my dog

went to 2 different stores to shop for my new dog it was much fun to get dog stuffs ha i begin to love to shop for my new dog
can't wait to get more and more stuffs hehe i begin to get crazy over getting dog stuffs ha. Who knows i will take him to those pet stores they are one of some stores that welcome pets in the stores. That will be so cool when people see my dog and go wow what a great dog heh. Can't wait to do that someday with him going with me in the store .
got dog food, treats, baggies, toys and some more leash. i brought travel bag for future travel for my dog when he go with me to somewhere. i am already parpare for him to come home-his new home of course i am sure he will enjoying his new home when he comes. i will get him more toys. There is a cubcle "shelf" box that have "cloth boxes that go in those "shelf" i will get it soon. can't wait to have him in my life.

researching and reading about dogs

i am reading dog books and learning about dogs and their breeds also their health and what to do and etc... and make notes what i need to do with the dog. i get more informations lot of them to make list for what dog needs like bed and foods and of course toys to play with. i am learning and hope i will buy for my new dog and check everything and etc... i always wanted dogs almost all my life and now i am about getting one about time since i was kid yaya i am glad that my sister found one for me a adult dog already trained and house broken perfect for first dog with any hassle to train a puppy for a first dog. can’t wait get one this month.
i am now reading, learning and get more informations about other people experiences themselves with their dogs in one of the dog forums that i belong to. i like to get informations about raising dogs personal from people. i begin to understand and start to make notes for myself in case when it happen to me with my dog i always would love to experience taking care of my dog. i will always love them like they are my own kid

Update NEWS

Right now my moods are feeling so lousy lot of things going on around me and i had hard time to deal with because of my depression i still can't seems get rid of it sighs but i am still in therapy hope this week when i go in for my weekly session i will got my feelings out about what is happening in last week, it is better than keep it inside too long.
First: i lost my cousin last sat (may 26, 2007) i miss her so much she is wonderful person we have bonded when she was kid i feel that she looked up to me when she was kid. I have one of my favorite picture of my cousin sitting on my lap with my 2 cousins who i also lost along with my brother and my sister and my other cousin (the older sister of my late cousin) She is the 4th cousin that i have lost and Second: i feel that my friends are ignoring me but i don't think they are because they have their own problems i hope everything will be alright later on i feel so bad for them when they had their own problems that i already knew what was going on i hope that they will be alright i wish i was there to comfort them and i feel so sad for them because they works so hard to make the event special because it is their special day and all of us who is invited can be able to spend the special day with them. Third: i am upset that i would not be able to get my dog sighs but i understand of the high temps and not good for the dog i don't wanted anything happens to him. hope i can get him next month i feel if i had my hope up and it got ruined that all i feel but i know that i am serious of get the dog i already pay for him so he is still mine.
Well the arrangement of getting my dog have change until june sheesh but we have some reason is because the temperature of this week will be in 90s so much for the dog to fly over to me so we (my sister, the man and i) still talk about the arrangement of me to pick him up and etc.. and now while he is still at home he will get his teeth clean and neuter for me so i don't have to pay for all the stuff i told the man to go ahead and he will tell me how much and etc.. and sound like i might have to pay him back for that but i am not sure of that but i will wait and see if i have to. I hope everything go smooth with the arrangement of getting the dog.

progressing of getting the dog

we are still in the progressing of getting my dog. Problem is that temptures will be in high degrees like 90-100 next week ugh that mean the airlines will not transporting pets in the airplanes while the temps are in high level jeez that mean it might likely that my sister and i might have to go to get him it mean costly trip to spend on sighs but we are still working to make it work to get him like no choice to pick him up or whatever works for us
hope things will go smoothly to get him i can't wait to have him in my life and be my companion and complete to be in my life
can't wait to have him i always wanted a dog i know dog is lot of work but it is worth of shot to have to keep busy

dog update

i am getting dog next week and i am paying my sister's friend for the dog and then my sister friend will sent his dog to me by airplane better that way so it won't charge me and my sister for the trip to where he lives and also it cost lot of money for the trip back and forth one trip on airplane is not so bad since it is one way trip for the dog soon as i get the dog i will post here with his picture soon as he get here
i can't wait to see him when he arrives and i will go nuts taking his pictures ha and have fun with him heh

busy week this week

this week will be busy week for me
tomorrow night i will go to the silent dinner that deaf people in my town get to meet once every month. Wednesday i have appointment with my therapist that i go to every week and after my therapy i will pick up my dress that i had on layway i really like that dress it was really nice one and perfect for hot weather and on friday it is my birthday and i will be 35 and i go to my sister in Indiana for my birthday weekend. i will be picking up my new dog i can't wait to get him hehe lot of things to do there my nephew have baseball game and my niece have dance recital on saturday.
oh well it look much a busy week for me hope soon i will get my new dog can't wait

today is first day of may

today is first day of may and in 18 days it will be my birthday. i can't wait i hate to be old lol
my sister wanted me to get a dog from her friend who is looking for home for his dog who is retiring from breeding and dog shows so i decide that i would take his dog in to be his new owner his dog is 3 years old male ltalian greyhound and perfect for first dog less of troublesome than puppy i will get chocolate lab later for my 2nd dog and this time i will be much more experience with dogs that i can be able have no problems training and etc...
i can't wait to get him so he can be in my life and it will be complete not so lonely and make me enjoying take care of him and give him much loving and etc...
hope it will be soon when i get him that my life will be busy that i won't have time for everything well not everything

getting ready for ohio

i am leaving for toledo tomorrow for my bus depture for cleveland to meet my close friend who is living there now so we can leave on friday for her friends house together then on sat go to deaf nation expo together i can't wait for tomorrow to leave i am exciting about it i haven't seen my friend since jan it seems like years but it was only 4 months since. i can't wait for tomorrow i missed my friend can't wait to see her tomorrow when she pick me up from the bus station i will be leaving little late afternoon will be in cleveland in early evening about the time she finish with work. I can't wait to have fun with her like hang out with her like chatting catching up about our lives and etc... can't wait to have fun with her

lost the connect to my laptop

last night i lost my connect on my laptop MAN!!! it was sooo boring night of my life when i am without laptop waaah!! and again tonight it will be boring night of my life also. I can't believe it i can't stand being without computer for few days hopefully i would get it back tomorrow or tomorrow night sighs can't wait to get it back and have fun with it again it was terrible boring for me without my baby (laptop) of course my laptop is my baby LOL!!
i can't live without my laptop ugh. hurry someone get my connect back on GRR haha i miss my laptop very much and even being on. I am bitting my nails right now because i have nothing to do except using my dad's desktop computer for while which i hate to use ugh. His computer is old!! and he not like to get new one oh well that is up to him anyway. For me i still plan to get new laptop later on but having money problems right now i hope it will be alright later on.

today is somewhat bad day

i had somewhat bad day and when i woke up and was little sleepy when my mother keeping asking me questions about the deaf expo OH GOD why is she on my case again about that scoffs she just wanted to know WHERE i would be i told her in columbus she got so freak out so easy that i blew up on her to stop control my life and stop ask me where i would be at GRR
i can't believe that she is doing it again sighs but anyway i gave her lot of informations so she will leave me alone but dad make me feel better that he told me to go he thinks it is great that i am going and get out of the house and do something and i can be able to meet deaf people because he was watching me suffering so much be alone all the time. i told him that mom not need to get freak out cuz i am still plan of going with close friend of mine that they have know since she was little that they trusted i am still going whew!!!

so anyway after i watch the time to clean out the problems video i finally got it to work it got me to feel better after watch it
it was funny video and definity love it i hope everything will go smooth with my trip to ohio

deaf nation exp here i come

i am going to deaf nation expo with close friend of mine
we just talk about going there today and about getting me to my friend apt and join her to the exp and we decide that i would go to cleveland ohio few days before the expo to meet her them zoom to columbus ohio on friday to stay at her friends house then saturday go to the expo and have fun hopefully to meet kim,kenya and cheri hope to meet pam and brad there if i can meet them can't wait to go there to see everything EXCITING!!!!!!!

snow had come back GRR

GRR snow come back ruined my moods blah i wanted snow to go away for while i hate snow really hate it i am getting tired of snow sighsi can't believe it it was snowing today all day dang dang it is crap to see the snow again ugh GO AWAY SNOW

weather

spring is here almost oh well i hate winter because of the cold temptures i hate cold temptures blah i wanted winter to stay away for while so i don't have to deal with my SAD blah soon summer will be here i love spring and summer because of warm weather and high temptures hanging there i hate winter because cold weather and temptures blah i wanted spring back dang
i like spring because of warmth temptures and i love summer too as well and i like spring and summer weather because i don't have to wear winter coat scoffs i hate to wear coat i like to wear light weight jacket for spring and just wear shorts and T-shirt for the summer i like to wear whatever i wanted during summer not to worry about to wear warm clothes during winter

Easter is coming up

can't believe that easter is coming up soon time go so fast i like easter but not really my favorite holiday but i always like easter been celebrate easter since i was kid and i would wear my light color clothes i might go to my sister in IND to see my sister and her family even her dogs of course i miss her dogs. my sister's birthday have gone by and my mom's birthday and mine are coming up hope soon i will get puppy but i am not sure when i will get the puppy i plan to get new laptop but i have to research to see if i can do the monthy payments on new laptop best one than my old one so i don't have to pay full on it. i am almost finished with my cruise payments yaya.
i have lot of things to do this summer that i will be busy and keep myself busy and soon i go to the deaf nation expo with a close friend of mine and my friend's wedding is coming up and i am invited to her wedding and visit my friend in cleveland where she will be living soon next month (May)
can’t wait to have fun this summer even with my friends and family of course

i made cupcakes

yesterday i make cupcakes with cherry favor cake mix and put vanilla frosting on top it was SO good i love cupcakes i will make more later on for my sweet tooth that drives me nuts for i feel like cupcakes yesterday that why i make those i like to make cupcakes it is not hard to make YUM!!!

happy birthday to my sister

wanted to say happy birthday to my sister and she is older than me HUGS sister i love you

my best friend is moving away

i am feeling sad today because i learn that my best friend is moving to cleveland ohio in may because she got the job offered in cleveland ohio from her old company that are moving their employees almost everywhere and closing the company and she accept the job it is better than not get the job
i will not have much friends in michigan anymore and it will be boring without her sighs and i will miss her but i will always go there to visit who knows maybe i will follow soon if i find job there in ohio i am sad about her moving away i will miss her being around but i will keep in touch with her i have done that before will do that again she is my best friend since we were little
i am happy for her to accept the offer it was fast it is better than nothing i hope i will get job there if i can find job who knows
if i will live there who knows

the weather have got hotter

the weather have got hotter and it feel like summer in last 2 days heat waves have start OMG now i can't sleep at night cuz of the heat at night blah and i start to wear short and T-shirt i can't believe it my season affective disorder (winter blue) is about to get better soon as the weather approve and the tempture go up and the winter have gone and i really start to enjoy the warmth and the sun is out for few days but i really enjoy the high tempture for now but soon i won't be enjoying it if it contiune that way for while dang
i believe that weather have gone out of control for while with up and down (yoyo) temptures for while now OY i am going to enjoy it when it last for while i am not sure when it will go back to the spring like temptures that i do enjoy too that it was not so cold not so hot just equal tempture i wish had my puppy now and i would have take him out and take him for a walk and enjoy it together so now i better go and enjoy the weather

can't wait to talk to my friends on my VP

i can't wait to talk to my friends on my VP
2 friends of mine got their new vp i am excited for them to get one hehe about time they get them yaya
i already got 3 friends in my VP list hope to get more in my VP then i can get my own cable modem in my room so i can hook up in my TV not in other room so i can VP my friends anytime without bother other people by use other room for my VP chat blah so anyway i am going to plan to VP chat with my good friend soon but not sure when because we need to set up time to chat i kinda of miss talk to her on VP.
FIRST i need to talk to my cable company about the extra modem being in my room for the VP and how much it cost so i can get them and have it install in my room i hope it is not so expensive to get the 2nd modem if it is not expensive than i thought it would be then i will get them and install it in my TV and use my VP to talk to my friends i am glad that i got my own VP lol
i really enjoyed using VP hehe

my depression

i am having hard time get rid of my depression it can't be rid of very fast overnite it need time to heal like it will takes few weeks to few months to get well depression is a mood disease i am in therapy for my depression i have psychologist and a signing therapist. with psychologist i need to ask him about antidepression medications and etc... with therapist talk to her about my feelings and what my goals will be and i have to do with them to complete.
i am working on with my goals in my life and do with them i have few goals that i wanted to do that i wrote down in here below
my depression was worse and bad this year than the previous years that i have been depressed this year that i was not be able to get rid of it i am glad that i am getting help and that i can be able to heal better and take time to heal easy. Depression take time to heal and sometimes can have relapse from depression. sometimes i do get relapses from depression i am working on getting better

love to read books

i love to read books i always read every subject from fictions to non fictions actually i have some of my favorite subjects of books and books itself i have some that i save so i can read it again and again in the future i really enjoyed reading and i like to read in bed when i travel with people i do read in car to keep me from getting bored i like to read action books and sometimes horror books
i have some of my favorite authors that i enjoyed to reading their books it is really interested to read them
ghosts and hauntings are one of my favorite subjects of books to read because it really interested me learning about history of haunting itself and how people experiencing seeing them and felt the presences i have experience myself that why i have start doing that since i have been collecting the books since then and save them not to give away actually i have 3 boxes full of them
that i saved

researching to get puppy

my sister and i are researching some of the breeder list around near my home what breeder is good with all the genetic testing and etc... on the dogs that they don't have health problems later in the years. fortunely we found some breeders that breeds chocolate labs around near my area that is cool. if there no available labadors yet and i can be on the waiting list anyway. when there are available labardors then it is time to get ready to get puppy when i am ready to get one then we get together we will go to the breeder of the choice and look at the puppies i am thinking of getting chocolate lab and can't wait to get one i always wanted pet since my old cat died and i am ready now to have a pet around and be in my life again i wanted chocolate lab and i just wanted to be mommy again of course i am still my old cat's mommy no matter
i know how much work with puppy and training and etc... but i just don't care i just wanted to have a full life with puppy and keep me busy and etc...

need to make goals in my life

i decide that i would have to make some list of my goals and try to do the goals that i always wanted to do then i have make some goals in my life to make my life more livable and keep me busy i make lists of my goals that i wanted to do there is the list i write down i hope to complete and contiune to do so not to give up the goals that i wanted to do i hope i can do the goals that i will try to do

1. work- work with animals-volunteering and maybe can get a pay job maybe like bookstore i like books
2. going out more and be with people more and get to know them and be in the "group" and be part of their lives
3. be on my own-IMPORTANT goal to do so i can learn to do
4. learn how to drive-always wanted to do that was never done i feel that i would use to the experience of driving

5. have someone in my life- it was my goal to have but never got to it and i am not sure of that myself because i get hurt all the time maybe i need time to myself first then later on get to know guys first before get serious and be in relationship

I love to travel

I love to travel I have been traveling with family since I was little girl and start to travel with friends later in years when I got older and I still wanted to travel on my own to experience to risk myself and protect myself as well I learn to while travel with friends. I just wanted to learn to do it on my own.
I like to expore everywhere that I never been to and get to know the places if i enjoyed the visit at the places then hope will visit the same places again in the future

my first VP chat

last night i did my first vp chat on my new VP-200 with my friend we chatted about lot of things and etc... like blah blah it was fun and i really enjoyed chatting wth my friend and i hope will do that again with my more friends later on i really like it so far and it is better than chat online so i can face to other person in face ha

start on cross stitch project

i am making this cross stitch project see the pix it will be big one and take time to finished i did that for my brother and my sister in law when they first got married and they hang that in the bathroom they thought it was so sweet and amazing that i can do that it was my first project when i start to learn to cross stitch and i have been cross stitching for 5 years and loving it
that i was be able to keep myself busy do the projects any thing with cross stitch i was glad that i start to learn
i have some of my favorite cross stitch projects that i do over and over it is like small ones and fast ha ha and it was fun to do

i must apolized to everyone

i must apolized to everyone (my friends) for my negitive attitudes earlier i hope they would accept my apolizes i know that they are try to help me but it was not helping that i am feeling that they were blaming me but i know they were not blaming me it just been hardest thing how i feel they need to understand how much i have been through with my depression and the negitive thoughts was part of it and now since i am getting therapy is that i hope everything will be better sooner with a flow and i can be able to move on without crying and hating myself for what i did, my moods were up and down lot and i was off the wall
i have been writing about my moods and my feelings and etc... A LOT in journals it did help but talking to someone like therapist does help also but writing in journals are like everyday thing to do when you are feeling so down

i think i would better off without the stupid guy he is not the one for me anymore he is not worth to be with anymore move on to new guy if i can find one who is the one for me

Sighs!! have to do something about myself

i don't know what they are doing tell me off to move on that i can't just move on that fast but i can move on but it take awhile to move on i need to have somebody to talk about like have friend to be there not just yelling at me and blaming me for what i did only being there to listen and understand not just yell at me to move on fast that i would not just move on fast only slowly as i can to move on only i do get the blame by myself they don't understand what i have been through trying to get my life back i never had a life for while cuz of this stupid man waste my time pending over him and go to see him when i can't go then later break up with me and break my heart and i will never have love again from him only i have to is just move on to other guy but it is hard right now feeling that they are blaming me for that i just hate it what i am feeling about
i have been crying all night that i am taking the truth from them and i have hard time take the truth that i ruined all the chance i will never have-love from this stupid man only i have to is just move on and find other one that can treat me BETTER than this stupid guy and i guess he is not the one to have oh well
since i got some therapy yesterday and it is the beginning of it and i am getting weekly therapy for while to deal with my emotional and heal myself it takes time to do it can't do that TOO fast i am having hard time getting rid of my depression that i am having for 2 months it was the longest that i have been experiencing i had it before but it was only short time and i was be able to move on easier but not this time because of problems now it is getting harder now to get rid of depression it take time to heal and get some relief from the depression it will take few weeks to get better from it
i hope it will be much easier as it was before with the therapy and etc...

had good therapy session today

had good therapy session with a woman therapist this morning she was recommend by my cute psychologist that i met last month that he give me and she know sign language and i felt that was the best for me so it won't be a problem for me with getting a interepreter without any conficts who will be avaliable i am glad i went in talking about my family life and that i been feeling hurt by this stupid guy and what my life is doing and etc... i like her already she is very friendly and listening that what therapy are about and i am keeping my weekly session with her will have other one next week
i hope that i will keep going there until i feel better or whenever