yesterday shopping day

I went shopping yesterday and i had fun and i feel so much better as i got some retail therapy as i need.
did shop at PetSmart for Pappy to get dog food and more poopy bags as i am out of. Did went to JoAnn for thread i need for my own cross stitch project of Christmas Eve Couriers-words and the reindeer which i did work on during christmas time. i got deer and reindeer cross stitch kits. I was so glad that i got these.
Went to target to get Rolaids, slippers, i like the pattern on the slippers, cheetos i love to eat those, holiday earrings with little red bells, green snowflakes and little snow flakes, big plastic envelope for my cross stitch project lists, and valentine day candy bags. I didn't spend lot in target they were on sale. i use all in my debt card because i don't have extra money in other account but i will put more in soon when i get my check.
i went to Borders to see if they had my favorite calendar journal book but they didn't have it but i know where to get it as Barnes and Noble do have that so i will get it later this week.
Went to Kohls and brought white hood sweater that i always wanted and didn't get it for christmas but i got it with my gift card. Also i got PJs with snowflakes on it, more flappy slippers in black ones but it was little too big but i don't mind maybe my feet will grow if i continue with yoga, and blue long sleeve shirt that i almost brought before but yaya i did got it heh also on my gift card.
i will wear my new hood sweater with my snow flake mock shirt on New Year Eve day and wear my PJs on New Year Eve too. I can't wait for New Year Eve to wear my new clothes.

Merry Christmas

i got shoes and i will wear it when weather is good and warm i will wear it during spring and maybe summer while it is nice and sunny. i love the shoes and i wouldn't wait to wear it soon. everyone love the presents i give them.
i love the sweater that mom and dad give me i will wear it when weather is nice and sunny even warm too. i got gift card from kohls and i can't wait to use it hehe. i will use it once a while not in one time.
i got purse it is nice maybe i can use it in spring time or now who knows.

Suddenly i was not feeling well this morning oh gosh i hate to be sick on christmas day sighs. hope after i rest i will be feeling better.

it is Christmas Eve

had things done this morning and now it is after noon and i am waiting for mom and dad to get to sit down and open our presents right now mom is in shower as dad is at the store. Hopefully we will get out of here before 3pm as road didn't look so good as we would wanted to get there at my sister before snow comes, and before dinner of course if we go there about enough for us to have some snacks before dinner like have some dips and cookies. i love eating those before dinner heh.
i can't wait to show off my new laptop as when i got them they didn't congrats me as i got it i feel that it was not great to get one oh well but i got it anyway and my brother were SO excited to get me one anyway and we did some cam chat twice since then.
will have one maybe tonight and tomorrow now that i have cam build in the laptop and battery is running great not need to keep it plugged whew. i am very happy to have new one. i am really enjoying it very much.
on my way down i will catching up with my reading other book that i have not read for weeks as i am trying to finish other books. i am bring 2 books as one book is near done anyway. i always like to bring extra books.
hope rest of my day today is good.

Michigan get hit by snowstorm

in Southeast Michigan in Washtenaw County got hit by Major snowstorm with 6 inch to 10 inch of snow
i have shoveled off the snow twice now for my dog, Pappy so he can go potty on the spot. i hate snow as it is hard work to keep it clear up ugh. even shoveling the snow off for Pappy.
my skin feel so dry during winter and i had to keep put lotions on my hands to keep it from dry.
i hope this winter was not so bad like it was last year it was so bad and i get depressed during winter time with my SAD. this year i am feeling little same by feeling SAD. i need to deal with my SAD this winter now as i have last year.

Feeling SAD again

i am feeling having SAD again i hate it while it is winter now ugh that i am both sad and happy and it is out of control i feel that i wanted to cry. my body feel crying as i am feeling SAD, mostly i am worried about my friends as they are having problems right now and some of them have broke up recently and i am worried about them.
i feel that no one wanted to talk to me anymore but i don't mind that since it is holidays as well that they are busy as well of course i am busy myself as well trying to get things done before christmas.
i am glad that i am done with shopping and had spent out christmas cards about time i have been waiting to do that for 2 weeks now jeez i hope next year it will be better as i might will be driving and have driver's license by next year i hope.
hopefully i will blog little more before New Year begin

More Haunting researches

I am doing some new Haunting researches on new places, new places that I am interested in and some new Haunted city 

San Diego, CA is actually new city on my Haunting research list that I am doing right now as Ghosts of San Diego. 

I am doing some Battlefields of Civil War on lot of places that have been in battles in some places during Civil War as I know the famous one was the Gettysburg Battlefield, that I have visited before and also still research on that of course it will be on my research list on Haunted Battlefield. I like to research on Battlefield of Civil War. 

I love to add more new researches on my Haunting research lists.

christmas shopping are all done

i am so glad that all of christmas shopping are all done whew i am so glad that i am done then i can start wrapping presents and put them under the tree but only 2 left i have to do next month when i get more money. i am sending my brother's little girls presents. but i promised them i will make up to get them something. Next christmas i will get them something.
i am sending out christmas cards to my friends and part of my family. only one thing i really wanted so badly was one cross stitch kit i wanted was cabin fever i always wanted one for so long, hope i will get it soon. Also the christmas coffee mugs i wanted to get more so i can have set of those. i am going to check on some plates and bowls on same pattern as the mugs to see if i can be able to get some set to buy or on layaway i will check if i can get them on layaway. i hope i can.
i wanted to get one book about season affective disorder and calendar book just i have now that i love that i can put little schedules on the calendar book, and i am planning to get same one for 2009.
i am going to save more money better next year.

been busy for while now

i had been so busy for while now since i got new computer and i am happy with my new laptop as now it is calming down as there is no downloading to do yet as later that i will have more. i got all of my files changed but they are all same files from my old laptop but it have different program than the new laptop. But they can be changed as i save them as same files. i am glad it all finished. the holidays are coming up, i really need to get things done before the holidays, i am sure i am invited to Christmas party but i am not sure. i need to finish my christmas shopping for everyone but i will get my brother and my sister in law later in jan as i get more money. i will save better next year for christmas 2009. i am planning to make cookies i love christmas cookies i hope to make cookies this weekend. i will contact my 2 friends about the christmas party if they wanted to go. I need to contact my other friend about my VP as possible and see when he will be available to fix my VP, and of course move it to my room. So i don't have to worry about my VP being in other room and being disconnected all the time.
tonight is last season of Ghost Hunters and will watch DOG: the Bounty Hunter. I am wonder about Knight Rider why they are not showing i hope it not canceled i hope it will show before christmas or after New Year who knows. I really love Knight Rider as my best friend do, we were wondering about that.
i am going out getting things.

Got New Laptop

i got new laptop, Macbook today. i am so happy heh i am glad that he order for me while ago and have mailed to me and now i am beinning to cleaning out my old laptop and transfering my stuff from old one to new one and my new laptop is macbook and more memory and new stuff in new one and i love it already and i am playing around alot. i am really happy next time if there is much newer laptop in the future i will save up for that much easier. we are working on my new laptop
i love my new laptop i am playing with it hehe just like i did with my old laptop when i first got it i have been saving my money so hard and i did it hehe i am so glad that i was be able to save much as i can. i am so relieved to have new one and it is much better now than the old one it is worn out not the new one it s better whew can't wait to be on my new laptop when it is all finished and done.

can't believe that December is here

i can't believe that December is here and the year of 2008 is almost over. i hope the year 2009 will be better year for me. That i will save money little better that i will have enough for christmas 2009. i wouldn't believe that christmas is coming and i don't know if i will enjoy christmas because i won't have much money for family to give as i am buying new computer but i can find a way to fix that then i can enjoy christmas i can always make up for that later but it won't be same anyway. I am solving the problem trying to figure out what i can do.
i love to see all the outside light decorations for christmas. i love christmas decorations, my favorite christmas decorations are candles and stuff.
i hope things will go well as i can solve money problems

more snow of the season

again that i am having more snow as before christmas hope to have white christmas when christmas comes in few weeks
i will blog tomorrow for first day of the month as this is last blog of month of Nov as i am having Winterstorm ugh
Pappy hate cold grass but with the snow i guess he didn't like it but he did bravely walk on the snow to his business place beside the garage on the wall that is Pappy's winter potty place as i call it heh. i do like to watch snow but driving in snow no way in hell i will do that until the road is clear then i can drive. Can't wait to drive.

setting christmas up

i am setting christmas up in my room and it look more christmasy
i am getting tree later and need to set the outside light up before snowstorm hit tomorrow. then i won't get worry about setting it up.
i like christmas decorations in the house they are always look pretty. i love christmas because of decorations and presents of course heh also being with family that what christmas are about.

feeling little weird about things

i have been busy for few days and i am still feeling little depressed that is part of my SAD ugh. i am feeling so sad, i hate winter and but i would wanted to play in snow but i have no one to play in with me. i am glad to be at home for Thanksgiving and i can be in my room and etc. every time i am at other people house mother not like me being in other room jeez just give me a break scoffs. i always feeling left out when they are being with other people since i am only deaf person and it is very hard for me to follow what they are saying i just hate when they said oh it is nothing, it not nothing to me sighs. i don't like when mom jump in my face about that..but weird thing she let me being in my room at home it is strange to me why can i do that in other people house shaking my head.
i am busy with my dog i am really thankful for my dog being in my life and kept me busy. i feel i am not a family member anymore as i wish i have moved out long time ago.

feeling little depressed

i am feeling little depress that i felt no one cares about me anymore i blame my depress feelings. I felt i am crying, i felt i need some comfort and love. I feel i am not loved, i miss some of people and i am not sure if they ever miss me. I don't know what to do. So i found a book not so long ago that i wish i have gotten that before so anyway i need to get the book about season affective disorder so i know what to expect while having SAD and what to do and etc... i know where to get anyway.. i always get SAD every winter time from late oct to late March sighs..by feeling so sad and depressed. i know i need to keep myself busy only hobby i feel more attentive to are my cross stitch projects. sometimes i feel i wanted to write, i do write stuff. i really enjoy writing as i do with cross stitch projects.
when i go to the bookstore i will get the book, i think i better get it. As i might need it and i am very curious of what book says. when i go to Kohls to do christmas shopping then that will give me time to go to the bookstore next door to get the book. shopping is my therapy it had always make me feel better as cross stitching have also. I can't wait to do christmas shopping as it is shopping therapy anyway.

getting things ready

i am getting things ready for mom's return home that i am cleaning the house i know that mom likes to come home to clean house so i have done laundry, vaccuming the whole house. will do the bathroom and the toliet cleaning, and cleaning the kitchen tomorrow but i mostly keep the kitchen clean oh well.
can't wait for mom to be home i kinda miss her but not all the time still she is always been my mother. But other part is that i hate to clean but if i have company coming i will always keep things clean of course. i always keep myself busy. i am sure mom will be happy to come home to clean house that i have clean for her.

Do Ghost Hunting

I still watching Ghost Hunters they are are really good I am glad that they are my favorite.

there is some place I would like to go to cemeteries, I know that some Ghost Hunters don't do cemeteries but some Ghost Hunters would do cemeteries.

I would love to to go Waverly Hills in Kentucky maybe I would join one group in Michigan or Ohio who knows maybe be member of TAPS, The Ghost Hunters group.

TAPS got to travel everywhere, lucky them. Maybe when I join the team who know I can join them on their travels.

I really enjoying traveling so much.

Quiet days

in last 2 days had been so quiet which i really enjoyed
i was be able to do cross stitching without anyone bothering me while i am doing cross stitching. i keep the house little clean but i will do all the cleanings next week before mom get home.
i am trying not to buy things for myself for while because christmas is coming up next month and plus i wanted to save money for new computer and maybe a trip to California so i can visit my brother and his family and plus to see my newest niece who is about to turn 2 weeks old this sat. I wanted to see her before she get big but by the time i see her she will be already big. oh well anyway i always like peace and quiet when i am doing my projects.

bad morning

i had bad morning
i set up for my driving lesson and it fell apart that mother won't let me go that she thinks she need to be there sighs i need to be there alone while i am doing driving lessons i don't think mother understand this part why i am doing that i thought we agree if we do it seprate. it seems i am very disappoint in mother for not let me to do things i wanted on my own
i have been fighting with her since morning about what i wanted. She refused let me what i wanted
i got so depressed about it, and other part we will be apart for a week that what i need. I was invited to a Thanksgiving dinner at a friend house, Mother got so upset about it oh jeez. i wish she would leave me alone. i have thought of something to bring a Rice Krispie Squares for dessert yum heh can't wait to go. I think mom is kind of little jealous that i am having a life away from her that i am doing with my own life, I wanted my life what i wanted.
things are getting little better after solving things up. I am glad whew but still i just wanted to do things that i can do without mom being in my way, wish mom would leave me alone so i can do things on my own like learning on my own.
Now the rest of the day were little better but still soso day.

Night of TV

tonight is night of TV of my favorite shows

Knight Rider on NBC at 8pm
i really like the new KITT from Knight Rider but really i like the original KITT from first Knight Riders from the 80s

Ghost Hunters on SCIFI at 9pm
i like Ghost Hunters as it is very interesting of investigating Ghosts and presences and etc... that why i really enjoyed it from the beginning.

K9 COPS on Animal Planet at 10pm
i beginning to like to watch k9 which dogs are cop dogs chasing bad people and smelling drugs, bombs, differennt stuffs and etc...

DOG: The Bounty Hunter on A&E at 12am to 2am
i like to watch DOG and his team chasing fugitives who breaks the bonds. It was very interesting show.

i really like those shows as i am watching them...
that why Wednesday night is my favorite night to watch

November is here

wow November is here already since it is first day of November
my sister in law had baby today and it is girl i can't reavled her new name in here sorry, i am glad that the baby is here i can't wait to meet her in the future.
So Much to do in few weeks next week mom leave to see grandma as she always do every month then she leave for California to help out with the baby i am feeling little jealous i wanted to see the baby but she won't let me go. Sigh!! Sometimes i felt that Pappy is taking over my life but i don't have problems with but seems that i felt that i wouldn't travel around with Pappy around. Hopefully i can found a way to do. First i have to find a way like looking for good boarding kennel for him. Sometimes he can travel with me.
i will get 4 of my family memeber birthday presents soon as i get my money then i will get food for week while mom is in CA and i will have a week without mom of course dad will be with me while mom is in California and sound like i will be cooking all week ha, Maybe i can try to cook for both of us i am happy to. Then i will be blowing my money when i shop for Christmas presents for my family i am sure i have plan to do like try save money for instead of buying my cross stitching stuff, that i have lot now. not a problem for me, i am sure i have plan to do.

it is Halloween

trick or treaters are so cute dressing up for halloween and love to give out candy and me munching on my own halloween candies hehe. Pappy is with me this year as last year that i was not home on Halloween but this year i am and am happy to be home with Pappy. He just celebrated his birthday 2 days ago.
i do like Halloween but i like Halloween stuff like witches and ghosts. Witches stuffs and Ghost pictures and of course get candies heh. But not much i love Christmas as Christmas is always my favorite that i get presents.
When i was kid, Halloween was my favorite.

I love to read ghost books and some horror books too on Halloween. Of course watch paranormal shows during month of October. i have some favorite paranormal shows and it is too long to list.

today update

i got flu shot today and i have feeling that i will have sore arm later and will not be feeling good due to the shot but i will not get flu later on since i get the shot, but of course i will get cold anyway i did get cold last winter, anyway.
went to Target and got deals on halloween stuff like caldron mug, kitchen towels with skeletons on it i have been looking for halloween kitchen towels for while now but glad that i found them yay, and witch "candy" jar just like Pappy's Paws "treat" jar i am thinking of getting other jar for Pappy's dry food for traveling but i will get it later when i get kitty cage for my friend for her cat she wanted to get a small kitty cage and i told her i will get one for her to help her out.
i can't wait for Christmas so i can get more towels maybe i will get more white towels for halloween and 4th of july and some green towels for Christmas. Will get valetine day towels with extra pink towels and Easter towels with extra light blue
i am collecting them for my first Apt so i can use them each holidays in the Apt.
I can't wait to move out to my own apt.

What a week

My Vacation this week was great i really enjoying being with my friend and see everything in Cleveland and Awesome thing i ever seen was the statue of fightfighters memorial it was really awesome and amazing. I really love the statue and actually have become my favorite statue in Cleveland. I did took few pictures of the statue.
i did shop and brought lot, hehe. I did brought books even ghost books, but will plan to get more. I did brought lot of clothes actually brought them for winter i got white long sleeve shirt to replace the old one that i had and it was torned that why i decide to replace with new one and i did heh whew. I did went to Lake Erie it was amazing place and see all the water and don't see any land ahead on the water. i am glad that i was be able to see Lake Erie. I would love to go back and visit more heh.
while i was at my friend my other friend did emailed me and did tell me that she is doing allright whew she did scare me that she had not email me much. i am glad that she is doing alright and i am planning to see her soon very soon as possible. i will email her soon as possible.

Vacation Plannings

my books reading is doing well as i have keeping my focus on trying to finished
hope they will be done before i leave for Cleveland on my vacation if i don't finished by the time i leave for Cleveland i will put it beside and read other 2 books that i plan to read during my Cleveland vacation until i get back then i will finish them off. I did finish 3 books now so far.
i can't wait for my vacation in Cleveland and be with my friend, I think she misses me and of course I miss her and this time was perfect time for us to get together and do things together.
I hope to see all the fall foliage who know to find a apple Orchard there and get some fresh apples, apple cider and apple donuts and maybe some apple bakeries who knows heh.
i have research of where the apple orchard are close or around. i would love to go to farm markets and see what they have and also get fresh bakeries and fruits and of course fresh veggies. of course i will try to do in at home that i have both apple orchards and farm markets. i will love when i go there.
can't wait to leave tomorrow!!.

Future Road Trips

i have make list of places i wanted to visit maybe with a friend who might will love to visit places with me. Here is the lists that i have make. There is some places in the lists that i have visited before and would love to visit there again.
would love to visit:
Pennsylvania, Gettysburg Battlefield and Philadelphia
Virginia-any places in Virginia
Salem, Massachusetts “Witches’ Village”
Charleston and Hilton Head Island South Carolina maybe touch Columbia
some places in Florida and also Key West
Lake Tahoe and Las Vegas Nevada
Colorado
few places in California like maybe Los Angeles and San Diego
few places in Texas
Minnesota to visit mall of America i wanted to touch there and maybe to visit some more places
Louisiana, New Orleans
Washington, D.C.

there are some maybe places to visit list:
places in Tennessee
Savannah Georgia
South Illinois
Missouri
Arizona

Oregon- don’t know, a big maybe. i don’t know if i would go there with a friend maybe i can go with group of friends like going camping with there who knows as Oregon might be good place to go camping, but there is one place i would like to visit- Crater Lake

there are places that i always wanted to visit that i hope to visit someday maybe i can do with my friend who knows and also bring Pappy along who knows, sometimes i will go without him.

my visit with my friend

Very soon that I wouldn't wait for my visit with my friend at her Apt. There are few places i would like to see while i am with my friend. We have start planned for some of the visit, I can't wait to visit some of the places that we have planned to go. We are still on the planning progress on my visit there. planning to visit some places while i am visit with my friend, I am visiting Cleveland, Ohio with my friend who lives there. I always wanted to visit more of Cleveland i have been there few times but would love to visit there more. As now that my friend lives there that i will be visiting there more in the future. I have missed my friend and i am excited and looking forward to this visit with my friend. As it is my turn to visit as she had visit me at my place. I am glad that i get the chance to see cleveland as i have visit there before but this time more visits.
I love shopping, hopefully that i would do the shopping there. I love to check lot of stores there i might to make some of list of stores that i would love to go and check out like some of my favorite stores. I am hoping that i can get my christmas shopping to start so i don't have to worry about do whole shopping in Dec i like to do some before then. i can't wait to go there soon. i am very curious about shops there. Even crafts shops and bookstores, those stores are my favorites of course Kohls is my favorite clothing store. I can't wait to go there, it will be very soon until i get there.

last big weekend of cleaning

last weekend was big weekend of my room cleaning.
i clean my room, redid my jewelry box and drawer and orgnaize my earrings and necklaces into little bags so i don’t have to worry about mess them up and misplace them. clean the one underwear drawer to divide the sections each, will do other one soon when i buy other dividers for other drawer. I change my summer shoes to winter shoes. I change my summer purses to my winter purses. i clean my closet, cleaning my files by putting some of my files in boxes in the basement. i am glad that i am doing that this weekend, because i will be so busy next weekend that i won’t have time to do the cleaning. I am glad that i did it instead of doing it next weekend, that make me feel better of doing it.
i am feeling by having SAD again since the temptures have gone down at night. I always get SAD everyyear at Fall and winter time always begin in fall time then it end at end of winter into beginning of early Spring. i like to do something to keep me busy even with my SAD now, like doing cross stitch and reading my books. Of course i do write in my journal about my moods and even my depressive moods, and SAD.

have passed driver's test

i have passed the driver's test earlier this evening oh god i am so excited and i can't wait to go behind the wheel and start driving hehe
i am hoping that i can pass the road test later on then i get license and then drive around and who knows i can get my travel start heh. i can't wait to get my travel start when i get my license. i have been looking foward to do it, for so long. I will set it up maybe my next trip with my new license maybe going to Pennsylvania who knows. but i know mostly i will go to Indiana as i always have.
i am so EXCITED that it make me feel so good i have permit now hehe and i am ready

Planning To Visit Places

I am making list of places I am planning to visit and also touch 

as I am touching the places, I would like to check the books of locals haunted places and of course make book list of them if I wouldn't afford to buy all. I like to buy ghost books and etc...

Of course to visit places I wanted to for so long

here is the list I wanted to visit:

Salem Massachusetts and Massachusetts itself

Cape Cod

Maryland

State of Virginia-almost everywhere

Tennessee

Southern Illinois

wanted to visit again:

Philadephia

Charleston

New York state

Washington, D.C.

There is more on the list I will post again later 

I am hoping that it will happen one day in the future when I make it happens maybe I will make the trip alone who know maybe i can do that 2nd time later on.

Happy October

wow this month will be so busy month for me
will visit my friend in 3 weeks can't wait to go i miss her so much and i am excited for my visit. Pappy's Birthday is on 29th and i am thinking of getting him something for his birthday as i will saving up, maybe i can find something for Pappy while visit my friend not a problem. i have cross stitch plans to buy, first i have to buy more threads for my Haunted House Project. Maybe i need to get more threads for the project alltogether soon then i can get it start on new one if anyone wanted one to be make.
now i am on my October book list and i am reading right now hope that i finish my book #1 by this weekend and then get start on book #2 by next week. Hopefully by the end of October i would be finished all the 5 books. i am Planning to bring 2 books with me to my friend's so i can read at night before going to bed. I like to read as i am glad that i did and i also like to collect books before i get start to read 4-5 books each month.
i am happy that Halloween is coming soon as Halloween is my one of my favorite holidays beside Christmas. As Halloween is fun holiday.

lost few of my friends

I am very depressed that i felt that i am losing friends i don't know what i did wrong that make them not be my friends i wish that they would tell me what wrong. i think one did quit facebook that why the person was not on my friend list.
i have met lot of people and i guess they don't look at me like a friend anymore, and they ignored me and i felt that they look at me like a weird stranger not wanted to be my friends also they have avoid to be my friends. That really hurt my feelings really badly. I simply don't understand what their problems are if they were not telling me. if they were then i will understand then i will not be their friend either.
only one thing i don't like to is bother them or make them feel pressures from me.
i guess that they sees me like i am not very nice person but i am nice person but problems is my shyness is taking me over.
i guess i better off to be alone without anyone in my life.

Exciting weekend

i really enjoyed my free weekend from mother and father as they went to mother’s 50th class reunion in other state.
I love a weekend like that, I hope that Mom and dad can do that again in the future.
i did watched my favorite movies and some the movies i haven’t seen from my VHS collections. while i am watching movies i plan to eat popcorn, pour over butter popcorn yum and also some mini mirowave cake it is good i did ate that before and it is good. maybe someday i will buy big bowl of the mircowave cake to see how it goes.
i did my 3 cross stitch projects that i am really anxious to finish so i can get the bear project started. i really enjoyed doing cross stitch when things are so quiet in the house, so i can be able to keep my contraction. I did join a cross stitch group that are doing a MSAL project i posted in my cross stitch blog about that.
i cooked homemade taco, my favorite. I did eat soups-Campbell soups which i love to eat, which i had to eat, when i am hungry. Pappy have keep me busy taking him out for tinies walks.
i got to catch up with my book readings whew.
i am planning my future land travels i have already make list of land travels that i would like to visit and touch. I put my future travels in my note book.

Catch up News

i had good time last Saturday i went with my 2 friends to a festival and it was very nice and i brought some tote bag with prints on it i like it and i will use it more soon but not sure when i will use Maybe i will use it for my cross stitch projects and my shopping bag for my new cross stitch projects. I love cross stitch
i am glad that i got things from JoAnn i had to get more flosses. Plus i am also happy that i already went to Target to get stuffs
but will get more later as i am not worry about it now until i am kind of low on and then i will worry about to get it.
Will get more stuff-foods for this weekend that i need to get so i can eat dinners and even lunches.
I planning to do more stuff to keep me busy this weekend like much relax weekend that i love to have A free weekend without anyone around just me and my dog.
i got the photos from Camp Sandusky, where i went with my friends, it was good photos. Next time when i go camping with them again i will take my digital camera period.

depressing weekend

last weekend was depressing weekend because the rain from the remnants of Hurricane Ike. Rain all weekend only little breaks then heavy rain between little rain and dark cloud and heavy rain more often, very wet and i get wet getting my dog out in rain and it got colder with the temptures going down more as it rain more sighs. But it was neat to watch the rain and make my mind blank out staring at the rain dropping with drops of water. The cloud was so dark and heavy that i barely see sun that make me feel tired and depressed. I slept more often during the day during the weekend. Rain make me tire easily.
i hate depressing weekend. Even more  is raining yuck. Rain make me feel depress and tired all the time, feeling sleepy all the time. I always sleep more during the day when it is raining.
Lucky i didn't get flood basement but little creek near my house got high but not flowed over whew. but 2 little pond near one of my neighbor house did got bigger to ONE huge pond. it got up to almost 7" that was pretty high and much.
now i am glad it is over but never know when it will happen again, it will soon but when?
This summer we only got little rain but LOT of sun which i love summer '08 was the best summer i got beause of sunny everyday made me more cheerful.
Guess this fall and winter i will get my SAD back again just like last winter sighs. So anyway but i can find something to do anyway.

Wanted to visit Haunted Places

There is few maybe lot of Haunted places that I would love to visit that I never visited before and also same places that I have visited before and would love to visit there again. I can keep my visit recorded and etc... maybe sometimes my visit that I will be alone not all of the visits. Maybe my friend would love to come along that will be fine, I can't wait to get start on that it will not be long vacation it can be just 3 days thing like weekend thing anyway.

I always wanted to visit the Haunted Places-Public Places like parks, museums and etc...Even Haunted Cities also, there are few on the list that I would love to go for maybe 5 days thing, or a week anyway I can use long vacation to do that.

while I am in places I can get more Haunted books to add in the collections. I love to collect Ghosts and Haunted places books

Ghost stories based on the histories books as well.

feeling lonely

I am feeling depressed because i am feeling lonely,
i guess my friends are not talking to me. i guess they are not talking to me oh well as i know i never talk to them i am trying to talk to them it seems like that they are ignoring me. Oh well i guess i would just leave them alone anyway, maybe just let them come to me as i know they wouldn't not come to me anyway.
i don't know what to do i feel like i am losing friends when i don't do anything wrong or anything. Sighs sound like i am losing friends, as they seems don't care about me. I do care about them. i am REALLY scared. I wish they would just let me know that they are doing alright and what they are up to and etc... without me having fear of losing friends with a silence treatments. I hate silence treatments.

Summer have gone

i guess that summer is gone until next year i will miss summer but i will see it until next year so right now i better enjoy the cool weather and watching the changing the colors of the leaves on the trees until it is gone and the trees are naked during winter time. i like fall but summer is always been my favorite season.
Fall have came early as i guess as the leaves change the color in the late september and early october.

i like to watch raining falling as i can see the drops falling as i would wipe my memory out as watching the raining falling.

A Life to Do

I rather have different man in real life to meet rather not to have my ex that i never met in my life i don’t need him anymore, That i don’t like my ex now. So i can be able to get to know this new person easier and understand about my feelings and my family’s feelings and etc. and understand what i have been through i have been through so much with my family in my way and control my life but i am glad i am in therapy and try to get my life back the way it was before.
My therapist made sure i am doing thing i need to be to be independ and i am doing it it feel good to do those things like i got my dog, opened new check account and getting myself to drive again. After get my license i will start looking for Apartments.
Looking for job to support myself is very important.
My family are starting to back off a little to let me leading my life. I am glad that my family are backing off and they are letting me to drive. I can't wait to start to drive.
i can't wait to get my life of my own

New season of Ghost Hunters

New season of ghost hunters start last night it was really good episode. 

I love Ghost Hunters all they did was investigating of ghosts and etc... I have been watch Ghost Hunters from 1st season when they started as i have been watching them. Even i catch up with them as watch rerun some of the show that I did not watched.

I would love to be Ghost Hunter myself so I need to contact my local ghost society to see if they would like me to be part of Ghost hunting society or be member of the society. I will found out sooner as I would.

things happens on this date

today is my dad's birthday, well happy birthday to Dad.

It is the 14th anniversary of tragic car accident that claimed my 2 teenager cousins who were twins and were 16 years old that time of the car accident i never recovered from the tragic event. I miss them so much, i can't image to lose them like that by the time of the accident but it did. i was very sad when i lost them. i was very close to them and i really love them very much. They were wonderful people and so sweet.

i hope today will go well as it goes by.

September have come

Sept have come and i had fun boating in Lake Winona in Warsaw Ind it was really great Lake.
i have lot things to do this month it look like mom is kind of serious of going to Northern Minnesota but i am not sure she always change minds but i will wait and see. if we are not going and that way i can be able to save money for my trip to Cleveland in October.
Pappy is doing great he is good dog can be little wild and hyper but it is good hyper way it is the way of wanna to play and needed some exercise heh.

happy birthday to friend of mine

happy birthday to L.

happy birthday to my friend she is older today ha! other year older as we get older every year. i have know her since we were kids and have seen each other growing up and etc...
i was very happy that she is my friend.

Future visits and etc...

i have been thinking of lot of things and one only part is that i only wanted to save money for my trip to ohio to visit my friend who live there have been living there for a year and half now. she had been here recently and now it is my turn to go there to visit her. Much easier if i get car and i can go there anytime.
i am not sure of going to Northern Minnesota in September, but i can just wait and see what happens if we wouldn't go we can always go there next summer first thing to go, i don't have any plans next summer anyway so it might be good time to go there, But i am waiting to see if we will go next month or not that all. I don't mind if i don't go there and that way i would be able to save money for my visit to ohio in October instead.
i miss my sister and i wanted to see her and i have no idea why my parents stop going to her house for the whole weekend visit. They are not telling me why they only give me little details but it not really why. if i have car i will go there and stay for the whole weekend and i told my sister about that and she told me that it will be great, then i will do that i felt one day thing is not my thing anymore. I like to stay little bit longer that i only can get more visit that way.

Doing More Researchings

I am doing more researching on one research that I haven't done for while for whole country of US 

each of haunting places, lists and etc...

Cemeteries 

Haunted locations

Haunted cities/town

I really enjoyed doing researching ghosts and hauntings. ghosts and hauntings really interested me for so long, I am glad that I stayed interested in stuff like that for long time.

had quiet weekend

it was nice quiet weekend,
all i did was catching up with my summer book reading i have few books that i would like to finish reading so i decide that this summer is good to get start on reading, and i am glad that i have plan to and keep my concetrate on my reading this summer i finished May list of books, i finished June list of books, and i finished July book list of books so far. Now that i have start on August book list and I am now reading Innocent Traitor and hopefully to finish 3 or 4 more books before Sept
i have done few cross stitch projects this summer so far. i have done hairstylist, I’m a new big sister, christmas woods, Ghost Trio. I did the Hairstylist for Lynn over again this time it is little big but not big problem also easy to see much better this time with size little big, but who cares of the size of aida it can do any size of cross stitch no matter. That is all finish and ready to frame it.
i am addict to cross stitch i would do 4 projects at same time back and forth i know i am crazy but expert on cross stitch can do that so i am expert on that so i would be able to do that. I am finishing Iwonka’s wedding present, it is almost finish all i have to do backstitch to finish. i am doing Gabe’s belate birth announce because when i did the bear birth announce and it look too girlish for him so i decide to do that for scott and steph’s since the baby is going to be girl so i am doing that for her when she is born. Gabe’s present are nearly done i am now on Lion and the Tiger.
i like quiet weekends when i have been out lot and feel like wanted to have quiet weekend that i wanted to enjoyed. I always enjoyed quiet weekend when i wanted some quiet time. I love weekends to relax

the trip have changed

the trip to Minnesota have changed from August to September i think it will be interesting trip who knows if the leaves will change to fall color by that time, and then the weather would be cooler and wouldn't not affect the swelling of my left foot which i am having problem try to keep it down even with high humidity. i hope that the weather will not be so hot by the time i go there. i really enjoying going to Northern Minneosota, it was fun to have relaxing vacation and be away from everything that are very stressful. i need to have relaxing week. I don't have problems of going to Minnesota in September, it will be an interesting trip.
i have few things that i plan to do while i am there. there are few books that i would like to finish reading and also there is few cross stitch projects that i would like to start and also some of the projects that i would like to finished also.
i have switched some of books lists that i have made before and so are the cross stitch projects that i have planned to do and also have switched them. i can't wait to get start.

Future Planning

i am going for the driving test hopefully soon, very soon hopefully this end of week i hope. i think mom is kind of nervous and scared for me i don't blame her for feeling like that but mom is not showing her feelings to me oh well. It is time for me to be on my own i am too old to depend on mom and i am getting tired of mom whining about that she and dad won't be living forever it really hurt me to think of that, i know we don't live forever but it really make me feeling fear of wanted to try to be on my own. Without telling me about not to live forever that will make me feel that i can do things on my own.
I can live on my own i always looking forward to live on my own for long time, soon if i pass my test then i will start looking for place of my own soon i have all the apartments on the lists to look at. I hope that i find good Apartment that i like, I already like one Apartment and also it allowed little pets like my dog. My dog will live with me for long time.

on road to be independ

i am Very disappoint at mother for not taking me to DMV for my driving test it have been twice this week that i admit to get my driving test and did not get one sighs i hate when mother not put off some of the things like taking me to DMV only she did was just do cleaning instead of putting it off for while i am VERY disappoint in her and her attitudes i guess maybe i have to do it BY myself sighs...
I don't understand why mother not wanted me to drive i think my feelings is that she have attitudes of me driving it might be that she thinks i couldn't drive but I wanted to drive to be VERY independ of mother so i don't have to depend on her for that.. and other thing is that she might not like that i am on my way to be independ and getting away from her
Once when i go on my own to be independ that i won't see my parents for while i need to be myself for while, if i need them i will but not LOT.
I can't wait to be on my own

my life sucks

i feel my life sucks
i begin to dislike one of my forums *alldeaf* it sucks big time. i have been ignored in there, so i guess i better stay away from there for while. i guess i am not important to be interested to be friends with well that how i feel i feel SO alone
i don't have lot of friends i guess they are ignoring me when i am try to talk to them, it really hurt my feelings.
i guess they don't wanted to be my friends alright i will be all alone i don't need them i will blow them off leave them alone who cares about them blah

August have come

Month of August is here
i have few books to read for this month that i have plan to read. have few cross stitch projects to finished one is jungle birth announce, and Iwonka's wedding present that i am making for her.
i am feeling depressed today since my mother ruined my goal to look for jobs it seems like she not wanted me to work i wanted to work to support myself so i guess i better get moving and look for jobs in OTHER state not in michigan it is lousy state. even lousy state to live. i wish i have move out long time ago sighs. Mother ruined my happiness, I don't know how to be happy when my family are on my case and control my life. I felt i will never be happy ever. Only i can be able to be happy if i am alone and away from my family.
i hope to get away from my family in the future to stay away from them for while i need break from them for while. I really need to be by myself for while so i can manage my moods and etc,,, all by myself without them trying to control me, I need to control myself without them.

being left out by my family

sometimes i feel depressed and don't know what to do when my family ignored me and etc... i can't wait to move out so i don't have to deal with them ever. Once i move out i won't need to be with my family no matter what. i felt that they always drag me to family gatherings when i don't feel like wanted to go.
when i don't wanted to go that is my choice whatever i wanted only i not wanted to be there. i always feel left out when i am with my family whenever they talks it is hard for me to see what they are talking about. That is big problem for me to try to communicate with them with them ignoring me which i really hate.
when i am with them i don't need to be with them anyway but i can hang out with my nephew that all because he likes to be with me anyway.

New Researches

I always start new research on hauntings. I always add in my researches and etc... I always find interested haunting spots 

right now I am interest to do research on white witch of Fremont, CA and it legends.

it really interesting legends.

I like ghost legends even thou it is Haunting Legends anyway.

lonely

i feel so depressed this morning that i start to cry i don't know why i was crying i feel SO lonely all suddenly i guess i am lonely for my male friend that i had dream about i miss him so much i am wondering if he has think of me lately as i have i have not seen him for almost 4 years. I wanted to see him again, i know that we are very good friends. We do talk to each other once while. I am thinking of maybe see him again but i am not sure of when. But i will maybe talk to him about see each other someday like maybe meeting him in Chicago which is half way from his home and my home. Do something together while we are together in Chicago.
I wanted to shared my life with someone else and i wanted to love someone else. I never had long term relationship, i did nothing wrong. I am wonder why guys can't stay with me for long time. Maybe they look at me like i am ugly and feel embarrassed by being seen with me that make me feel maybe i am not beautiful. I am feeling so lonely that i felt i am not important person to guys my ex just blew me off last year deciding that we can't have relationship anymore that really hurt me so much that make me cry more often as i did try to kill myself 3 times that i am not worth to live that suicidal thoughts i have that lead me to therapy and i have been going to therapy once every week for a year now.
Now i am diagnosed as having fear of things around me as my mother used to hoving me and limiting me from what i wanted to do and control my life she used to not let me go with my local friends. She had been holding me down not let me go as i am trying to get away. But now Mother is letting me go as she sees me trying to be on my own as i wanted to be on my own. That make me feel good about myself that i can be on my own. I can whatever i wanted and mother is limiting herself from hoving me, and back off from controlling my life, that make me feel less fear but i still feeling depressed of course i talk to my therapist how i feel when i am feeling depressed. I don't have suicial thoughts anymore as i know that my life is important to me that i can lead MY life alone. I can't wait to do.

got new sidekick LX

my sidekick 2 broke that why i got new sidekick LX today because my Sidekick 2 didn't work anymore so nothing i can do that i need pager for emergency if something have happened it is better than do nothing so my new one is better than sidekick 2 and more memory and long battery and etc... so i decide to get new one anyway and i can get new pager later on if nessaary i am glad that i got new one that will make me feel better rather worry what will i do.
now it is all over for me to get new one whew then i don't have to worry about getting new one later now that i got new one now whoo woo.
i am playing with it now heh it is awesome pager i ever own

got back from camping vacation

back from Camp Sandusky
i am now at home got home earlier than i thought i would be i had much fun with my friends they are my true bluesy friends
i am glad that they are my friends i had fun with them like hanging with them. When i arrived to bus station in Toledo and they said the bus were full and i was little upset but my mother told me that she will be happy to take me to there but we don't know where to go as a girl hear us said it, she told us that she know where the bus station in Sandusky and was happy to join us to there. As we arrived i emailed my friends that i arrived and wait until they arrived, Mother got the chance to meet them and were happy to get to know them. We left for Huron Beach as i called the place, for our friend daughter's graduation party and it was fun. Then we arrive at the camp and all of us set my tent and it turn out great and my tent is big and very comfortable, i am glad that i brought it as it is very worth to have. I blew up my mattress and set the bed up to be ready as i go to sleep.We did shop at Walmart, i brought few stuff and i did got some clothes that i might need on this trip. We hang out until we went to bed and it was good sleep.
Thurs, we went to Put-in-Bay, it was very nice day and the island is beautiful all of us rode on the 2 seperate carts and drove around. We did shop a little. We went back to camp and did had cookout and the food is good, steaks and baked potatoes cooked on the grill, ohh it was so good yum, We did hang out more at the camp of course we did enjoyed hanging out at the camp not a problem i do like doing that as that way i can relax. I really enjoying relaxing.
Friday, Cedar Point Day!!
we went to Cedar Point and we did rode on the rides. Rode on Demon Drop, Rapitor, Maverick, Millennum Force, Power Tower, Twister, and Maxair. My favorite rides are Maxair, Millennum Force and Maverick. I didn't ride on water rides but some of us did ride on water rides. I won a stuffed white pup, LOL. It was good day We did went out to eat dinner.
Sat, Camp day we spend all day at camp, we did plan to hang out at the camp not a problem and that way i can rest as i did rest that i was not feeling well ugh being little sick almost ruined my day at the camp mostly i blamed on my swollen legs it seems like every July i get swollen legs ugh, all of us did swam but not me because i was not feeling well. We had hamburgers with 2 kinds of cheeses but i did had swiss cheese YUM YUM!. I love hamburgers Hmm. Of course all of us were sad on the last day.
Sunday, Last Day,
we took tent down and cleared the camp out, of course i help clean out, 2 friends left and one friend took me to drop me off
and it turn out there were a early bus and they had a available seat for me so i decide to exchanged my 2:15pm ticket for 9am bus not so bad. I arrived at the bus station and waited for mom ugh it was long time. As i arrive home i looked at my watch it was 2:15 that time i was supposed to leave sandusky ha. it is early heh. It was fun that i wanted to have other camping trip with friends.
we have other camping together in Tennessee in 2010 or maybe in Toronto Canada but i am not sure but i will wait and see how things go with the plans but i don't remember where in Tennessee that we are planning to have camping trip. i can't wait to go to Tennessee with them that will be blast time i can't wait for 2010 to come heh. i hope that 2010 will be big for me like be a driver and have car that i can drive to Tennessee Camp without any problem and be on my own away from parents.

On Vacation

i am going to be on vacation tomorrow for my camping trip i can't wait to go i leave for toledo about noon for my 2:45 bus to Sandusky when i arrive i am sure that i will go to the camp to set my tent up then go to the beach for my friend's daughter's graduation party but it look like storm tomorrow to happen but i am not sure have to wait and see. i hope it don't rain on us it will be very nice if we don't get wet from the raining, i hate raining scoffs.
if i go to Northern Minnesota later on then it will be very nice to have fun there heh.
i love Northern Minnesota so quiet and peaceful and love to look out on the lake and even fishing there. I can be able to do cross stitch my projects and finish my summer reading.
i love to read on my vacation,

Favorite Haunting Spots

Cemeteries are my favorite spots for hauntings. Abandoned places are also my favorite hauntings spots

houses are mostly abandoned places as they are haunted. 

I have been researching abandoned places and have some haunted abandoned places in some states. 

Ohio is my favorite state for abandoned places of course other states do have some abandoned places like California for example ghost towns are also a abandoned places but not really my favorite but I do like ghost towns and it histories because it is part of early america history. I am still researching abandoned places in all the states as I make the list and pick some abandoned places as my favorites. Also put on some states on the list as my favorite abandoned places.

had fun on 7/10/08

i had fun last thursday 7/10/08
my nephew and i went to the Fair and rode on rides and ate some foods there. the food were good and the rides were good but not fast as Cedar Point but had fun with him anyway. i really enjoy being with my nephew, he is sweet young guy.
we do have some favorite rides. my sister, my brother in law, my mom and my niece did joined me and my nephew but they did had fun too.
i love fairs with rides and games too even some foods of course

beautiful 4th of July

happy 4th of July and it is beautiful day and sunny all day also this weekend i am glad that today is beautiful plan to take my dog out for long walk before i am due to go to to the party at my brother in law's parents house for the 4th of July party i don't wanted to stay there too long because of my dog and etc...hope that i don't have to stay long.
can't wait to eat yummy foods at the party heh

Bad night

last night was bad night because of storms, it was one of the worse storms i have ever seen actually i have seen worse storms while growing up but this one i have not seen for so long and this year was bad year for storms. i lost power after storms hit hard and didn’t get it back until this morning sighs it was boring night for me but lucky i have my sidekick and i talked to my friend thank god she was on aim whew.. it was awful storm i just came home in time when it came it was close when i came home from town shopping. i tried to read my book in candle lit and flashlight it was soso sighs
but i am so glad that i got my power back today it was wonderful feeling to have electrity

first day of July

wow today is first day of July half of the year have pass around the corner will be august and Septmber even in few months christmas will be here then year 2009 will be here too. i have good half yea all to myself so far i am really enjoying being single. i don't have problem being single it is better safe to be single rather have relationship and get dumped by stupid guy. I am glad that i am not in relationship with stupid guy whew.
Tomorrow i will going to do my cross stitch shopping i love shopping for cross stitch stuffs i am glad that cross stitch is my favorite hobby. JoAnn is having sale on DMC threads that why i wanted to get more threads for my new future cross stitch projects. i like both JoAnn and Michael's, JoAnn is little cheaper than Michael's but it didn't matter to me anyway but i like JoAnn little better because they have more cross stitch stuff to get
i am planning to go back to Dunham's soon to recheck on things i am thinking of buying like new backpack, maybe new duffle bag who know maybe not i don't know and new swimming suit i am thinking of maybe look at tank tops. i like Dunham's when i first came in to check on tents and found some stuff i like and would wanted to buy. but of course i have few favorite stores Dunham's, JoAnn, Michael's and kohls even Walmart and Target.

Places I visited

there are haunted places that I have visited while growing up and they are very interested places to visit and WOULD love to visit again someday in the future and research about the places. 

haunted place i have been to 

Gettysburg battlefield

Pirate House Resturant

Mammoth Cave National Park

Alamo

Yorktown Aircraft Carrier

already touched

Galveston-haunted city, Texas 

Gettysburg-haunted city, Pennsylvania 

Key West-haunted city, Florida 

Charleston- haunted city, South Carolina 

Key West and Charleston are my favorite haunted cities

happy 45 year anniversary to my parents

it is 45 years wedding anniversary for my parents they have been married 45 years and for that long they supported each other and watch their 3 children born and growing up and now the children are now adult and over 30 years old, the youngest is over 30 the middle is over 35 and the oldest is in 40s. amazing how we deal with our lives to have mom and dad together for that long
and now their 2 children have their own children and are growing up. we love them very much

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY MOM AND DAD!!!!!!!

my front yard is all fixed

it is ALL fixed on my front yard yesterday i am so glad all since last december the city had to fix the leak pipe and make big mess in the front yard it look so awful until yesterday it now is beautiful i wouldn't stop look at it and really amazing that it is all done with whew
it is much better than it was before whew.

Been interested in Ghosts for so long

I have been interested in ghosts since I was 8 years old and been researching since then. I do believe ghosts I really do. I always knows that ghosts have unfinished business right here on Earth or not ready to go to other side but mostly they didn’t know that they were dead they are stuck in 2 worlds.

I have few favorite researches but I researches that interest me or curious about about the places. I have LOT of files full about ghosts and hauntings I make list of all the hauntings places and I have few favorites I will post them later and I will post some of the researches that I have done in here.

started on new cross stitch project

i start on new cross stitch project it was for my cousin's son but it was 3 years overdue oh well
it is a jungle birth announce and it is doing so well i am so proud of my self to get it start on 2 color threads that i already have and it is going smooth as i thought it will be and i already got more color threads for the projects that i can get the rest of the project going.
i love doing cross stitch i am so glad that i start to learn it long time ago and i enjoyed it so much and i always find some cool stuff to start with. i have lot of favorites that i wanted to do. i have favorite cross stitch websites and i would wanted to order online maybe i can do that later. I can't wait to order some kits and charts kits.

my heart appointment went well

my heart is doing well since my surgery in 2002 it is doing great almost perfect except the heart murmur i had it for so long time but nothing serious whew and the device that close the 2nd hole in my heart is still in place and doing well keeping in. As i saw in the heart doppler i saw my heart and how it does and even saw the device in piece. i saw lot of people that i know at the hospital and even my old doctor who is retired now but still doing the rounds checking the patients. They know me well and they sent a interpreter to me for my appointment and i really like the woman she is very nice and also she knows some of my friends it is amazing and also small world that we know same people.
i am still doing exercises even with Pappy i am keeping up walking Pappy and i need to keep lose some of weight that i don't wanted to gain more so but i don't have to lose lot just little bit that all to keep my weight even that all. I always gain weight during winter so i need to lose little bit so i don't have to gain much when next winter comes.
i am very proud of myself to keeping taking care of myself as my doctor was very impressed how i am doing and etc...even the murmurs in my heart, she was not really worried about as it was just my heart how it do and act that allm, that i am physically fine nothing really serious or wrong with the heart.
i was very happy about how it goes today.

about to have quiet week

i really need a quiet time to myself so this week would be quiet week for me as i wanted to have.
i have some plan to do while on quiet week i wanted to finishe one cross stitch project and then start on other cross stitch project. I wanted to read one book more that i have start this weekend then i can start on other one soon then when July comes i can get on new reading list for July books to read.
i always like to have quiet time to myself so i can keep my mind on track of what to do and etc...so i won't go insane. I always like to read when i am having quiet time to myself even doing cross stitch too. i also like to keep myself busy like get my room clean.
i always find something to do when i have quiet week so i can finish where i have start that i wouldn't get it start when i was extreme busy. i am glad it is quiet week for me this week.

feeling little down

i am feeling little down but it is not so bad but when i go shopping i always make myself little better soon when i get more of my cross stitch projects then i will feel little better and can't wait to get my project start it is already started of the very top of the project that i already had the color to start with, but i always buy more of the color threads for the projects. Right now i am beginning to get my room clean but i have to go in for my therapy and Soon after i get back from the town after my therapy i need to get more of my room clean. I like to keep my room clean.
i am thinking of taking vitmains again because i was feeling down almost everyday. But i will be alright. i hate to have depressive feelings as i am trying to get my life back the way it was before. I think i am facing the fact i will be on my own very soon, hope i will get use to the idea of being on my own.
I wish i have gone on my own years ago but with my mother's controllings it was worse i would ever made the mistake not to do it on my own but i am doing it now doing on my own without mother i don't need mother's permission to do so. i am way old enough to do on my own. I don't care how much i need to do

brought tent

my new tent

i brought tent at Dunham's on sale good deal i am happy that i decide to get that hehe see the picture of my new tent it a 5 person tent and it is coleman's tent it is good brand and it last for years i am glad that i got it on sale yaya heh i was happy that i wait when it got on sale then i grab it heh also i brought big duffle bag that i can put chair and sleeping bag in also i would put my clothes in there unless i use plastic bag for my clothes to protect them so it might not be big deal who knows also i can put pillow in the bag too. we can just play around and see how it goes.

anniversary of Pappy’s Gotcha day

June 5th 2007 i got Pappy from a friend of my sister’s and mine as he gave Pappy to me the year had passed and Pappy is still here with me. Pappy have been gone through lot of things with me like travel with me and etc... Pappy did celebrate his first birthday with me but unfortunately i was gone on a cruise trip but i was thinking of him on his birthday, pappy did celebrated his first Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Year with me and i was still around even thou Pappy was at my sister house with me on Christmas. Pappy did got his christmas present from me a stuffed christmas doll which is his favorite and had continue playing with the doll more often like run after it and than other toys he got. Pappy did travel with me to see my grandmother after he arrived and even stay at hotels that allowed pets even i brought him to my Uncle’s and my Aunt’s cabin in Northern Minnesota even make friends with their dog, Lulu they did get along with each other. Hope someday they will see each other again. hopefully this year he will go there with me again for sure but just wait and see.
he will go with me to see my grandmother in 2 weeks. Pappy had been good and also well trained as i try to get him to stay trained and etc... so he won't forget all the things he had been trained to.
i am very lucky to have Pappy in my life

Red Wings CHAMPS

Go Red Wings


Red Wings are Stanley Cup Champs they win the championship tonight whoo woo last time they won the championship was last 2002 wow it was amazing game, they will have parade on friday morning to celebrate the championship.
they are amazing team i ever loved and happy to be their fan as well. I am sure all of us are happy about the winning of the Stanley Cup Champ.

Great Job Red Wings

plans for June

today is Sunday, first day of June.
i have few plans for June i have to pay for my camping trip in July. i have to check with my dog's vet about the cost of neuter surgery. i need to buy new tent for the camping trip hopefully this month if i wouldn't not find the tent i wanted maybe have no choice to buy one that i might not wanted, maybe have no choice to bring my sleeping bag shrugs.
I can't wait for the camping trip i am going with friends i can’t wait to see them again i miss them very much and i am excited about it can’t wait to have fun with them heh.
summer have come and the warmth of the weather have become more warm than months pervious it was really cool spring
i can’t wait for summer to arrive i love summer heh as i guess that it already arrive that the temptures have raised more to warm degrees.
i will take a long walk with my dog in the evening time when the heat have cool down for the night.
i am still doing my cross stitch project for the month of June: a wedding project for a bride to be friend of mine. and i am thinking of start on true bluesy friends with different shades of blues hearts with their names on it.
my grandma will be 98 on june 20th i am sure we will give her a party with only family. i wouldn't image that grandma is still living that long.

busy day tomorrow

i am glad that i am home from being away from home from my sister's
it seems like i will have busy afternoon tomorrow dentist, therapy and haircut but not for me. wow!! first i plan to get my sheet change, after my walk with my dog, and get ready to go to dentist so i have to take medicine before i go to dentist.
i am not sure of what i will do after get home. i am sure i will go straight home from the salon because of my dog.
i am sure i might will have relaxing evening for the rest of the evening into nighttime doing my project or get one of the project set up. I have few projects to do i felt like 10 projects heh

memorial day weekend

this weekend is memorial day weekend my family will be together i am glad i miss my sister and her family can't wait to ride in her new boat and her new truck as well hehe. i can't wait to go to WalMart to get my new tent if we can go there for it. If not i need to find time to get the tent before i leave for Camp in Ohio. My sister told me once that she would like to buy Tent too, I was thinking if she and i buy together but i doubt that she will do that because i really need tent for the camp trip right away.
i am going to pay my friend the money for the camping trip that all my friends are taking and to pay off, and done with it. But of course i am taking extra money on my hands to take anyway in case if there is some extra that need to be paid anyway,
I hope this weekend will be great weekend with my family and having fun together.
I love them as i am learning to love them as i have been blaming them for many things but i need to learn not to blame them as i know that it was ME that i need to be blame to, not them. I hope they would understand how i feel about blames. i talked to my therapist about blames and i found out that it was not them it was me that i have been blaming. I always knows that i love my family very much no matter.

my special day

i am celebrating my special day today
It is my 36th Birthday
mom, dad and i went to maroni grill for lunch and i love my lunch yum
i got one blouse, a sweater, coin counting machine and a gift card i like m presents. they are awesome i can't wait to use my card
i have some of things i would like to buy with my card but i am not sure what i would like to get hmm
few of my friends did wish me on my special day i feel lucky to have them.
i have great day.

Happy Mother's Day

Happy Mother's Day to my mother as she is special mom to me lot of times while growing up. i know she can be good at things and etc.. will treat her a brunch later today for mother's day. Treat today as her special day. Already got her Flowers for the 2 big pots in the front of the house which she did planted in.
Happy Mother's Day to my sister as she is mom to 2 kids (my nephew and niece) and my sister in law as she is too a mom to one kid (my youngest niece) also mom to be to 2nd due this fall. Can't wait to meet the 2nd when it comes. Also can't wait to see if they are having a boy or a girl.

Have A Great Mother's Day.

Chelsea Strip Mall Fire

last Monday 5/5/08 there were fire in Chelsea strip mall (see picture above) 7 businesses had been lost to water and smoke damages mostly destoryed are on the roofs of the mall. 40 firefighters from 7 different fire departments-Chelsea, Ann Arbor, Manchester, Dexter, Saline and Clinton even Pittsfield township fire dept from Ann Arbor. That was the biggest fire happened in Chelsea i never had big fire so close to my home. It will be few months to rebuild the strip mall from the fire.

got stuff i wanted

Yesterday i went shopping after my doctor appointment i went in Best Buy to check out the memory cards i need for my new camera and i found it and i got my luck it was on sale yaya. Will buy more memory cards later on maybe this fall. i went in to Borders and looking for the book i wanted to buy awhile ago and found it and i brought it i was so happy to get the book i always wanted. I decide to go in to Linen-n-Things to look for new sheet for my bed good thing that the all bed sheets were on sale so i found one that are good also perfect for my future new mattress that i really need badly will buy more later after i get new mattress i like the feel of my new sheets maybe i will buy other one of same kind of sheets but in different colors. i feel i have good luck yesterday with the stuffs i brought.
i played with my new Camera with new memory Card hehe can't wait to take more shots. I am really enjoying my new camera i really love it really!!!. I am thankful to my sister for giving the camera to me as i feel that my old one were about to wore out before i would buy new one but now i don't have to, but i am planning to buy a digital camera for my friend so she can take good pictures out of the digital camera as she notice how good the shots from my old camera do, and of course i can tell that she wanted one so i offered to buy her one for a gift like birthday or christmas who knows heh
while i was checking out the memory cards i found one that might be perfect for her but i need time to look around more to check how it does for a beginner owner maybe i can ask for advice about cameras for beginners. I am saving up for few things i need to buy, new mattress, new laptop and maybe new chair but i am also saving up for my friend's new future camera. I am thinking about maybe taking my friend with me to shop for her new camera then i can buy for her. I hope she will love it the one i saw.

Renting Movies

I love to rent movies i am glad that i am be able to catch up with movies this year
i have rent few so far hope to rent more maybe this summer and there is few movies i would like to rent for this summer i have been keeping list of the movies that i would like to see. i like some of them i am looking forward to see 27 dresses as i did rented awhile ago i will have reaxing day and watch the movie and eating my favorite popcorn and Stargate: the ark of truth if i like these 2 movies i hope to get them as a birthday gifts if i get a gift cards to buy or as a gifts who knows
i have my own movies that i would like to see again like twister, everafter and others that i haven't seen for so long time
i will buy more movies that i always wanted to buy i will save money to buy movies that i wanted.

a warm May

last month it was warm everyday that i really enjoyed the warm weather and only had few rain days hope for this month as well for same kind of weather that April had. My dog, Pappy really enjoyed the warm weather that we went for more long walk i really enjoyed long walk with Pappy and i can lose my “winter weight” that i have gain a little during the winter that i had. for few days it was back to cold but i hope it won't last that long. Pappy and i will go for more long walk
my birthday is in few weeks i will be 36 wow where all the years go. this year have been better year so far for me better than last year. i hope this month will be good month with warm weather. oh boy time have gone fast.

plan to get new memory card

my digital camera that my brother gave me for my birthday stop working and i have new digital camera that my sister gave me for christmas that i have to get a new memory card for the new camera i can't wait to use my new digital camera i will let my sister use it while i am around
i really like the camera but honestly i am afraid of how much the memory card cost but i will check it out it is on my goal list to do to check it out. It is my goal to do so. i can't wait to use my new digital camera soon as i get new memory card

continuing reading books

i am continuing reading few books of course i am back and forth between books this set is number one set i am doing right now
the books i am still reading are:
Subterranean
contest
April Shadows
The Other Boleyn Girl

i will do the same with 2nd set of books i am planning to do when i am done with the books i have read above.
i will make few new sets when i plan to read numbers of books i plan to read

Set #2 i will read:
Atlantis: Devil's Sea
Atlantis:Gate
Area 51: Excalibur
Area 51: the Truth

Set #3 i will read:
Strangers
Mysterious
seance
Haunted

things to do today

had to go to bank to check why piece of paper that government sent to me not have faxed to me yet so i had to check with them see what was going on. have to refill the medication that i am almost out of. Planning to get some movies for tomorrow and wednesday and pickup some food for dinner for tomorrow night and maybe on wednesday i am sure but not sure about that but i like to be parapre anyway.
i have planned to VP with my friend tomorrow since no one will use the room where VP is in. but i am planning to move my VP in my room soon when i check with Comcast about the modem if it can be used for the VP. Can't wait to chat with my friend on VP it had been so long since i used VP. When i move my VP to my room then i can use my VP more often hehe can't wait to have it in my room soon.
i always wanted to watch Mr. and Mrs Smith DVD i decide to rent that so i am going to rent it today when i go get rent some movies. there is few movies i would like to rent maybe i can rent 2 or 3 who knows.
i have few things i need to get soon at Target.

Earthquake hit Midwest States

a photo of the earthquake being felt in few states

People in Chelsea and Ann Arbor areas did felt the earthquake that hit southeastern Illinois-West Salem, Illinois near the stateline of Indiana. 5.2 earthquake hit yesterday morning 4/18/08 after 4:30am. Quake felt far as Chicago,Ill, Indianapolis,Ind, louisville,ky, milwaukee,WI and Cincinnati,OH even felt some areas in 450 miles wide and all over the state of Illinois.
while being in bed i felt little vibrate of the earthquake on my bed while i was sleep that was felt in southeast Michigan as well as it was pretty far from the center of the quake it was pretty strong to be felt that far. It can be scary if it was stronger earthquake but i am glad that everything were fine.

waiting for rain to come

i can’t wait for rain to come i always find rain a very much relaxing and it make me very relax and it does ease my mind and have relaxing effect on me whenever i stay inside and watching the rain i like to do that, i like to watch rain pour down
i really enjoy watching rain pouring. when i feel so gloom and it is raining i watch them pouring down. As i stared at the rain i can see the drops of water coming down into earth, the rain help ease my mind as bad memories, thoughts and feelings out.
Rain does make a calm effect on me while watching them pouring down as i stare the drops of rain. Rain does effect really relaxing on me.

I don’t know what to do

i feel so depressed as i am watching my friends fighting and etc... i don't know what to do i am afraid of what will happen next i don't wanted to betray my friends if i didn't tell them how i feel. i know that i have right of my feelings i will be very sad if i lose them. Honestly i am getting tired of watching my friends fighting and ending friendships. i am very afraid of my own words as i tell them how i feel.
Also i am afraid of myself as well. Well i will take blame if they are blaming me.

New Cross Stitch projects to make

i am doing a new cross stitch project to make with left over color threads i already have left over adida fabrics so i can use for small projects. i can’t wait to start i am starting to make ideas for the projects then i will start on the projects with the ideas that i make. I really enjoying to make ideas for my projects. Hope to get it start soon as i am making the projects. i love to make new ideas for the cross stitch projects even thou i love to make my own projects. It was fun to do my own projects that i use my own ideas. i like to take pictures of my projects to keep record.
So much ideas i have and wanted to make and etc... I love to do my own ideas for the Cross Stitch Projects and can’t wait to make. I was so glad that i got to learn how to do cross stitch and it have now become my favorite hobby to do.
i always have new ideas of my own and add to the lists of my own projects and projects to do. i am making list of my own new projects.